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Chapters (39)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Hannah Begbie:
  3. Dedication
  4. Chapter 1
  5. Chapter 2
  6. Chapter 3
  7. Chapter 4
  8. Chapter 5
  9. Chapter 6
  10. Chapter 7
  11. Chapter 8
  12. Chapter 9
  13. Chapter 10
  14. Chapter 11
  15. Chapter 12
  16. Chapter 13
  17. Chapter 14
  18. Chapter 15
  19. Chapter 16
  20. Chapter 17
  21. Chapter 18
  22. Chapter 19
  23. Chapter 20
  24. Chapter 21
  25. Chapter 22
  26. Chapter 23
  27. Chapter 24
  28. Chapter 25
  29. Chapter 26
  30. Chapter 27
  31. Chapter 28
  32. Chapter 29
  33. Chapter 30
  34. Acknowledgements
  35. If you enjoyed Blurred Lines, keep reading for a taste of Hannah Begbie’s first novel Mother.
  36. PROLOGUE
  37. About the Author
  38. Also by Hannah Begbie
  39. About the Publisher

Her hair is cut to a short bob. People have commented on how it brings out her rosy cheeks and beautiful eyes, but it is the colour she loves: dyed from mouse to mahogany it glosses for the darker seasons and glows warm in the summer months. And it changes the shape of her face. She is no longer so readily identified as the woman from the trial. In the office, where it’s only six of them, it has never come up. Nor has she raised it. And it’s not a drinks-after-work kind of office. They disband at five, each heading off to their own low-key life.

After twenty minutes on the bus, Becky has made it to Islington. She passes the Queen’s Head pub. Scott took her out drinking here a few months ago, pushing a vanilla-scented cocktail into her hand before they both sunk deep into a cracked-leather sofa.

Scott likes the way Becky never tells him he should come out to his parents. Everyone else is mad-keen that he do it, he says, to ‘really rub the gay in their faces before they croak’. He’s just not sure that it’s very kind, is it? Bad enough that he’s torturing them with a lack of grandchildren. But nor does he want to be a Bad Gay, letting the side down. ‘The thing is,’ he tells her, ‘they bought me theatre tokens for my last birthday and said maybe we could all go and see a West End musical together, even though that’s really not my thing, so I think they’re basically trying to tell me they know and they’re fine with it. Don’t you think?’

She has unpicked all her hatred from his face. His eyes no longer appraise women’s bodies for opportunities to drug then abuse them. His smile conceals nothing. If he frowns, it is not a sly flash of his true self – instead it is some passing discontentment, nothing to worry about. In fact, she has become fond of his face. It is open and animated. Scott cries easily. He throws back his head when he laughs. He likes to hold her hand when they’re talking, and she likes that, too.

Scott has a boyfriend at the moment. His name is Ryan. It can’t last, whispers Scott when Ryan is well within earshot, he’s too pretty and too lovely and he makes incredible hummus! Ryan thinks Becky ought to start dating again. ‘You’re wearing too much billowing velvet,’ he tells her. ‘Eventually you’ll be mistaken for a chaise longue and then that’ll be it. You’ll be stuck in some old fruit’s drawing room for the rest of your life. You’re fucking fit, Becky. You need to get out there and get some!’