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Chapters (39)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Hannah Begbie:
  3. Dedication
  4. Chapter 1
  5. Chapter 2
  6. Chapter 3
  7. Chapter 4
  8. Chapter 5
  9. Chapter 6
  10. Chapter 7
  11. Chapter 8
  12. Chapter 9
  13. Chapter 10
  14. Chapter 11
  15. Chapter 12
  16. Chapter 13
  17. Chapter 14
  18. Chapter 15
  19. Chapter 16
  20. Chapter 17
  21. Chapter 18
  22. Chapter 19
  23. Chapter 20
  24. Chapter 21
  25. Chapter 22
  26. Chapter 23
  27. Chapter 24
  28. Chapter 25
  29. Chapter 26
  30. Chapter 27
  31. Chapter 28
  32. Chapter 29
  33. Chapter 30
  34. Acknowledgements
  35. If you enjoyed Blurred Lines, keep reading for a taste of Hannah Begbie’s first novel Mother.
  36. PROLOGUE
  37. About the Author
  38. Also by Hannah Begbie
  39. About the Publisher

Becky remembers pushing Maisie in her pram, past a group of schoolkids two years below her. Hearing the word ‘slut’ mock-whispered and then their laughter. Knowing that she wouldn’t turn, wouldn’t shout, wouldn’t protest it. She had tried to walk taller. She had forced herself not to speed up. Don’t let them see that they’ve hurt you. Don’t give them anything. Not so much as a flinch. And with her back to them, while her pace went unchanged, unhurried, her face was free to twist into an agony of shame and anger and sadness. Antonia knows all this, thinks Becky. She knows which parts of her Becky can see and she has decided which other parts she’ll show her. The rest can only be guessed at.

How are Antonia and Matthew, truly, walking in their kitchen at dawn? Stepping around that rug?

She watches Antonia try to open a packet of Fox’s chocolate biscuits wrapped in matt-navy foil. Her fingers are long and thin and she is wearing one particularly striking ring, an almond-shaped sapphire circled with tiny diamonds. To Becky, it looks like the Death Star surrounded by angels. Becky wonders how Antonia would seem, clad in Medea’s robes. How would she wear her face, if allowed to be all rage, all revenge, all agony?

‘Here, let me,’ Becky says, taking the packet from Antonia. ‘These are Maisie’s favourites. There’s a bit of a knack to it.’

‘I’ll look and learn.’

Maybe it’s this small kindness that prompts Antonia to unlock another layer of her private hell to Becky.

‘Bart is having a horrible time, having to side-step the press every time he leaves the house. He’s very sensible, he’s a good boy, he’s got used to saying, No comment. I think it’s just awful how these people feel that they can do that to somebody. I feel sorry for them. They can’t have much else in their lives.’

Becky knows that Antonia won’t ever say anything to her about Matthew and Amber’s historic or recent indiscretions. Perhaps she has tried to wipe it from her mind entirely, knowing that their marriage, the business, the family, everything that they have built together, must now be protected. Fought for. And if there are casualties, well, so be it.

‘Have you ever met this girl?’ asks Antonia.

‘Who?’

‘Amber Heath.’