Chapters (50)
- Title Page
- Copyright Page
- Dedication Page
- Contents
- One
- Two
- Three
- Four
- Five
- Six
- Seven
- Eight
- Nine
- Ten
- Eleven
- Twelve
- Thirteen
- Fourteen
- Fifteen
- Sixteen
- Seventeen
- Eighteen
- Ninteen
- Twenty
- Twenty-one
- Twenty-two
- Twenty-three
- Twenty-four
- Twenty-five
- Twenty-six
- Twenty-seven
- Twenty-eight
- Twenty-nine
- Thirty
- Thirty-one
- Thirty-two
- Thirty-three
- Thirty-four
- Thirty-five
- Thirty-six
- Thirty-seven
- Thirty-eight
- Thirty-nine
- Forty
- Forty-one
- Forty-two
- Epilogue
- Letter From the Author
- Acknowledgements
- About the Author
The bath water was growing cold and the candles that lit the bathroom flickered in the draft that crept in through the window.
Charlie was quiet for a minute or two, lost in thought. Eventually, she said, ‘OK. I understand. But I would like to hear more about your past. I love hearing you talk, Andrew. And I want you to tell me everything.’
She wriggled forward, our legs pressed tighter together.
‘But not now,’ she said. ‘Shall we go to bed?’
After we’d made love again, I remembered the things I had been meaning to ask her. Charlie had a way of sweeping the conversation along so that I’d forget everything I’d wanted to say. Like, she had never really told me about her background, her parents, where she went to school. Every day I resolved to get more information out of her – those were the parts of the past I was interested in – but some other topic always popped up.
I picked up the heart-shaped box that she’d left beneath my pillow.
‘Do you like it?’ she asked.
‘It’s lovely. But how did you do it? With the photo?’
She tapped her nose. ‘Ah.’
‘Come on, Charlie . . .’
‘OK. I’ve got a tiny portable printer. It’s in my bag now. I can plug my phone into it and print little photos. It’s really cool. I did it in the bathroom while you were waiting for me, then slipped the box under your pillow.’
So that explained that.
I wanted to mention the toiletries in the bathroom cabinet, but she yawned and said, ‘I really ought to sleep. I have to get up early for work.’ She groaned.
‘Do you dislike your job?’
She lay facing the ceiling, her eyes shut, bare shoulders just visible.
‘I hate it,’ she said. ‘It’s boring and stressful. Every minute I spend there is a minute of my life wasted. All I want is to be able to concentrate on my art.’
‘One day.’ I kissed her.
‘You’re sweet.’ She opened an eye. ‘Sorry, guys hate being called sweet, don’t they? I meant to say you’re butch and manly.’
‘I don’t mind being sweet.’
She closed the eye. ‘Then you’re even sweeter.’ She yawned again. ‘I really, really must sleep.’
‘OK.’
She rolled away from me. ‘Goodnight, Andrew.’
‘Night.’
‘I love you.’
I froze. Was I hearing things? We hadn’t mentioned love at all up to that point. We’d only been together just over a week.
‘Charlie?’ I said.
But she was asleep.
I awoke at some point in the night from a dream in which I’d been drowning, small hands dragging me beneath the surface of an ice-encrusted lake, the green, rotting face of a young boy leering at me, flesh hanging in flaps from a grinning skull, an eyeball popping loose and bobbing towards me in the dark water.