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Chapters (50)
  1. Title Page
  2. Copyright Page
  3. Dedication Page
  4. Contents
  5. One
  6. Two
  7. Three
  8. Four
  9. Five
  10. Six
  11. Seven
  12. Eight
  13. Nine
  14. Ten
  15. Eleven
  16. Twelve
  17. Thirteen
  18. Fourteen
  19. Fifteen
  20. Sixteen
  21. Seventeen
  22. Eighteen
  23. Ninteen
  24. Twenty
  25. Twenty-one
  26. Twenty-two
  27. Twenty-three
  28. Twenty-four
  29. Twenty-five
  30. Twenty-six
  31. Twenty-seven
  32. Twenty-eight
  33. Twenty-nine
  34. Thirty
  35. Thirty-one
  36. Thirty-two
  37. Thirty-three
  38. Thirty-four
  39. Thirty-five
  40. Thirty-six
  41. Thirty-seven
  42. Thirty-eight
  43. Thirty-nine
  44. Forty
  45. Forty-one
  46. Forty-two
  47. Epilogue
  48. Letter From the Author
  49. Acknowledgements
  50. About the Author

The other reason for the delay is that I’ve been dealing with the fallout of everything that happened. Adjusting.

But this email isn’t about me.

Tilly told me you’ve gone away for a little while, though she’s reluctant to tell me where, so maybe you’re not checking your emails. But I have been composing this message to you in my head for weeks and now I feel the need to share it with you. To explain to you some of the things that have happened since . . . well, since that terrible day. And, more importantly, to say I’m sorry.

I should never have believed you were capable of doing those things. You, the sweetest, most compassionate, life-loving person I’ve ever met.

How could I believe that you could be behind Karen’s death? Or the attack on Kristi? Or any of the rest of it? All you ever gave me was your love. You looked after me when I needed it. You made me happier than I ever thought possible, happiness that was off the scale. You came into my life like a great rush of joy. And what did I do?

I fucked it up.

Maybe if I tell you some of what happened, and what I’ve found out since, it will help you understand why I was so mistaken, so misled. That’s my hope anyway. I want you to understand that you were a victim of someone else’s scheme, of bad luck and bad decisions. I never meant to betray you, to let you down. If I tell you the story of everything that happened, maybe you will see that.

So let’s start with the person behind most of it.

Rachel.

DC Moseley came to see me in hospital. He said that three years ago a guy called Philip Ellis was tortured and murdered, along with his girlfriend, Sophie, in Birmingham. The police thought it was a murder-suicide at first, that Sophie had done it. But then they discovered that two of Philip Ellis’s ex-girlfriends had died in weird circumstances. They found Rachel’s fingerprints at all of the crime scenes. She was a friend of Sophie’s but there was no reason for her to have visited the exes.

By the time the police figured this out, she’d vanished. They realise now that she moved south, reinvented herself, worked as a cleaner at Moorfields, then got the job as Tilly’s PA after seeing me, becoming obsessed with me and getting information about me and Tilly from one of the nurses.

When they started to treat Karen’s flat as a crime scene, after I went to see them, they found Rachel’s fingerprints again. The results came up on their database while they were holding me at the station. It’s why they let me go. The police were out looking for her while everything was going on at my flat.