Josh waves his hand in the air. “Doesn’t matter. Anyway, we were talking and drinking at the pub, and Cal just up and leaves. Said he needed to get home. Jay and I kept drinking and talking. That’s when I told him about me and Laken.”

“What did he say?”

“He wasn’t happy about it. Read me the riot act. Then he told me I should tell Kim and we should go to marriage counseling.”

That sounds like Jay.

“Look, Molly. Laken’s been upset, and I’ve been having trouble at work. Cal never misses an opportunity to remind me that he’s my boss, that I’m not living up to the standards of the company and I’m lucky to still have a job.”

“So you got even with him?”

Josh shakes his head. “No.”

“Did you take Jay’s advice? Did you tell Kim?” I’m thinking no. She would’ve told me.

“I’m going to. Soon. I just need to find a way to break it to Laken. She’s having a rough time.” He draws a deep breath. “Jay kept pressuring me, and that didn’t help.” His eyes flash with anger. He looks like a drowning man who’s realized that there’s no help in sight.

“Uh huh. What about Kim? How could you do this to her?” Tears start to bubble up for my friend, and I feel Jay’s absence in a million different ways. He’d be able to sort this out.

Josh drops his head in his hands. “I’m an asshole, Molly. I fully get that. I never wanted to hurt Kim. She and Willow mean everything to me.”

“Then why haven’t you tried to fix this?”

“I was ready to. I really was. I got my courage up, even knowing that my wife would be devastated and I’d lose my job. Then Jay died, and I lost my nerve.”

I wipe a tear from my cheek and fold my arms. “Well, Jay is dead and buried. Time to move on, eh?” My voice is brittle. I have no sympathy for this sorry man.

He glances up at me and shakes his head. “It’ll crush Kim.”

“Yeah. You should’ve thought of that.”

He’s crying now and wipes his eyes with his palms, takes a deep breath. “She’s pregnant,” he whispers.

I catch the side of the counter to keep myself from tumbling to the floor. Sadie walks over and nudges me with her nose.

“Kim? Kim’s pregnant?”

He nods. “She didn’t want to tell you right away. She was hoping you’d have good news too. You’d be pregnant together.”

I glance at the ceiling and let my gaze linger there. What a lovely dream that would’ve been.