Back After the War
Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise
  3. About the Author
  4. Also by Anita Frank
  5. Note to Readers
  6. Dedication
  7. Part One
  8. Chapter One
  9. Chapter Two
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Chapter Seven
  15. Chapter Eight
  16. Chapter Nine
  17. Chapter Ten
  18. Chapter Eleven
  19. Chapter Twelve
  20. Chapter Thirteen
  21. Chapter Fourteen
  22. Chapter Fifteen
  23. Chapter Sixteen
  24. Chapter Seventeen
  25. Chapter Eighteen
  26. Chapter Nineteen
  27. Chapter Twenty
  28. Chapter Twenty-One
  29. Chapter Twenty-Two
  30. Chapter Twenty-Three
  31. Chapter Twenty-Four
  32. Chapter Twenty-Five
  33. Chapter Twenty-Six
  34. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  35. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  36. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  37. Chapter Thirty
  38. Chapter Thirty-One
  39. Chapter Thirty-Two
  40. Chapter Thirty-Three
  41. Chapter Thirty-Four
  42. Chapter Thirty-Five
  43. Chapter Thirty-Six
  44. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  45. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  46. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  47. Chapter Forty
  48. Part Two
  49. Chapter Forty-One
  50. Chapter Forty-Two
  51. Chapter Forty-Three
  52. Chapter Forty-Four
  53. Chapter Forty-Five
  54. Chapter Forty-Six
  55. Chapter Forty-Seven
  56. Chapter Forty-Eight
  57. Chapter Forty-Nine
  58. Chapter Fifty
  59. Chapter Fifty-One
  60. Chapter Fifty-Two
  61. Chapter Fifty-Three
  62. Chapter Fifty-Four
  63. Chapter Fifty-Five
  64. Chapter Fifty-Six
  65. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  66. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  67. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  68. Chapter Sixty
  69. Acknowledgements
  70. Extract
  71. Chapter One
  72. Chapter Two
  73. Chapter Three
  74. About the Publisher

She pauses in her reading, listening to Nora’s heels clump on the stair runner and her muted call of ‘Goodnight’ to Ted. His low response rumbles up through the floorboards. He is still here. She picks up the thread of the story and continues reading long after Tom’s silken lashes have dropped and his breathing has become soft and peaceful. She falls silent. Her pulse beats a little faster.

She closes the book and sets it down on the bedside table. She stands for a minute in the same pool of light that gilds her son’s slumbering features, then she turns down the lamp to a firefly’s glow, before plunging them into darkness. Still she makes no move to leave. She is aware of her shallow breathing, of her nervousness, but she gives herself a shake and scolds her foolishness. He is an old friend, she reminds herself, a neighbour … a stalwart in time of need. He regards her fondly and nothing more. She has wilfully misinterpreted his demeanour of late and by doing so she is putting their easy familiarity at risk. If she is not careful, she warns herself, her fearful notions will ruin their friendship beyond repair.

She leaves Tom’s door ajar and makes her way downstairs. She is reluctant to enter the sitting room, but she gives herself another no-nonsense talking-to and finally walks in as if nothing is wrong. Ted looks up over the top of the paper and smiles, and she knows at once – from the light in his eyes, the lift of his expression – that she has not been foolish in her suspicions after all, and her chest tightens with panic. The smile she summons feels more like a grimace, but she covers it by contriving a yawn which thankfully morphs into a natural one, rendering her less guilty as she hides it behind her hand.

‘Goodness, I must be more done in than I thought,’ she says, her voice artificially bright.

Ted averts his gaze to the fire – she suspects to cover the disappointment that troubles his features. Recovering himself, he closes the paper and neatly folds it in half, before setting it down upon the settee beside him. He pushes himself up.

‘I’d best leave you to it. I’ve probably overstayed my welcome as it is.’

‘Oh no, I didn’t mean …’ Gwen feels wretched. More wretched because he is exactly right.

‘No, no … it’s getting late … and you’ll be up early with the milking.’

‘Yes.’ She offers him a grateful smile.

‘Right, so I’ll be off.’