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Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise
  3. About the Author
  4. Also by Anita Frank
  5. Note to Readers
  6. Dedication
  7. Part One
  8. Chapter One
  9. Chapter Two
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Chapter Seven
  15. Chapter Eight
  16. Chapter Nine
  17. Chapter Ten
  18. Chapter Eleven
  19. Chapter Twelve
  20. Chapter Thirteen
  21. Chapter Fourteen
  22. Chapter Fifteen
  23. Chapter Sixteen
  24. Chapter Seventeen
  25. Chapter Eighteen
  26. Chapter Nineteen
  27. Chapter Twenty
  28. Chapter Twenty-One
  29. Chapter Twenty-Two
  30. Chapter Twenty-Three
  31. Chapter Twenty-Four
  32. Chapter Twenty-Five
  33. Chapter Twenty-Six
  34. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  35. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  36. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  37. Chapter Thirty
  38. Chapter Thirty-One
  39. Chapter Thirty-Two
  40. Chapter Thirty-Three
  41. Chapter Thirty-Four
  42. Chapter Thirty-Five
  43. Chapter Thirty-Six
  44. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  45. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  46. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  47. Chapter Forty
  48. Part Two
  49. Chapter Forty-One
  50. Chapter Forty-Two
  51. Chapter Forty-Three
  52. Chapter Forty-Four
  53. Chapter Forty-Five
  54. Chapter Forty-Six
  55. Chapter Forty-Seven
  56. Chapter Forty-Eight
  57. Chapter Forty-Nine
  58. Chapter Fifty
  59. Chapter Fifty-One
  60. Chapter Fifty-Two
  61. Chapter Fifty-Three
  62. Chapter Fifty-Four
  63. Chapter Fifty-Five
  64. Chapter Fifty-Six
  65. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  66. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  67. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  68. Chapter Sixty
  69. Acknowledgements
  70. Extract
  71. Chapter One
  72. Chapter Two
  73. Chapter Three
  74. About the Publisher

He does not reveal how closely he has watched the little bird over the past number of days, committing its form to memory. Or the careful hours he has spent sat on the edge of his camp bed in the lamplight, carving a piece of pine log into shape before sanding it with glass paper, following the grain with patience and care until the wood became so warm in his hands it was as if he had given life to his creation. Nor does he reveal his special trip into the village to order paints from the store, returning to collect them a couple of days later, or how he has painstakingly experimented with colour, blending globules of pigment on a broken saucer he found discarded behind the shed until he had perfected the shades required.

And never will he reveal that the fashioning of the nuthatch was not simply a way of passing the time, but an expression of the love he has come to feel for the farmer’s daughter. He knows it is pointless to lose his heart to her, but it is too late. She has elicited his love as unwittingly as she has received the nuthatch. He has begun to dread the day that he knows must come, the day he must leave her, for he cannot stay – for his own preservation, he cannot stay, and yet his own preservation seems so inconsequential now. Indeed, the delight in her face seems to confirm this conviction, for surely nothing that might await him, should he survive, could surpass the joy of witnessing her present pleasure and knowing he is responsible for it. But he is aware his feelings are unreciprocated, though he can’t help but wonder … if he was able to stay, if a future with possibilities – a future unblemished by his past – now stretched before him, might he be able to win her heart? It grieves him that he will never be free to try.

‘You’re very clever.’ She gifts him a smile so generous his chest must expand to take it. ‘Thank you.’

‘I say, Gwen! You’re taking an age, come back inside.’ Gordon emerges from the doorway. He glances between them, his eyes narrowing a fraction as he places his arm around Gwen’s back. ‘Is it all arranged? I’ll bring Gwen home, there’s no need for you to trouble yourself.’

‘It was never any trouble,’ Jack says quietly.

‘Look what Jack made!’ Gwen holds up the nuthatch for Gordon’s inspection.

‘Oh, how quaint. Can we go and dance now?’

‘Yes, yes, of course.’ For a moment, Jack thinks she means to say something to him, but she appears to change her mind and instead releases the clasp of her clutch. She drops the little bird inside; it clatters against her compact. She snaps the bag shut. ‘Actually, I just need to pop to the powder room – shall I meet you by the bar?’