Back After the War
Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise
  3. About the Author
  4. Also by Anita Frank
  5. Note to Readers
  6. Dedication
  7. Part One
  8. Chapter One
  9. Chapter Two
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Chapter Seven
  15. Chapter Eight
  16. Chapter Nine
  17. Chapter Ten
  18. Chapter Eleven
  19. Chapter Twelve
  20. Chapter Thirteen
  21. Chapter Fourteen
  22. Chapter Fifteen
  23. Chapter Sixteen
  24. Chapter Seventeen
  25. Chapter Eighteen
  26. Chapter Nineteen
  27. Chapter Twenty
  28. Chapter Twenty-One
  29. Chapter Twenty-Two
  30. Chapter Twenty-Three
  31. Chapter Twenty-Four
  32. Chapter Twenty-Five
  33. Chapter Twenty-Six
  34. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  35. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  36. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  37. Chapter Thirty
  38. Chapter Thirty-One
  39. Chapter Thirty-Two
  40. Chapter Thirty-Three
  41. Chapter Thirty-Four
  42. Chapter Thirty-Five
  43. Chapter Thirty-Six
  44. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  45. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  46. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  47. Chapter Forty
  48. Part Two
  49. Chapter Forty-One
  50. Chapter Forty-Two
  51. Chapter Forty-Three
  52. Chapter Forty-Four
  53. Chapter Forty-Five
  54. Chapter Forty-Six
  55. Chapter Forty-Seven
  56. Chapter Forty-Eight
  57. Chapter Forty-Nine
  58. Chapter Fifty
  59. Chapter Fifty-One
  60. Chapter Fifty-Two
  61. Chapter Fifty-Three
  62. Chapter Fifty-Four
  63. Chapter Fifty-Five
  64. Chapter Fifty-Six
  65. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  66. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  67. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  68. Chapter Sixty
  69. Acknowledgements
  70. Extract
  71. Chapter One
  72. Chapter Two
  73. Chapter Three
  74. About the Publisher

‘When I was little, I was given a bird-spotting book by my great aunt one Christmas. Each page was dedicated to an individual bird – you know the sort of thing, a little bit about its habits and where it could be found, what it ate and so on – and each had a watercolour illustration. I spent hours going through that book, but out of all the birds it was the nuthatch that caught my eye.’

She leans against the wall beside him, her shoulders curving against the render. ‘I said to Dad, “I’d love to see a nuthatch” and he just laughed and said, “Spend some time in the garden with your eyes open and you’ll see your nuthatch.” I didn’t believe him – I wouldn’t accept that I could have missed something so beautiful. How could that bird be found in our very own garden and me not notice it? But I did as he said, and sure enough a couple of days later I saw one skittering over the bark of the apple tree, and it was even more beautiful in the flesh than it was in the book.’ She shades her eyes with her flattened hand. ‘Isn’t it funny how sometimes the very thing we long for can be right in front of us and we just never see it?’

Jack says nothing. He keeps a steady watch on the grey-blue bird hugging the rippled bark, his heart too full to muster a response. In a rapid flutter of wings the bird is gone and the moment is lost. Gwen pushes herself from the wall.

‘Come on, work to do.’

They have been set the task of weeding the sugar beet. They work a few rows apart, their hoes scraping against the flints in the soil as they prise out the charlock and the groundsel, the chickweed and the shepherd’s purse. They bend and pull, and shake the earth loose from the roots, before tossing the vanquished growth into a pile to be burnt later. They are easy with each other and the silence between them is comfortable. A buzzard glides above them, its plaintive mew drawing their attention. They watch it land on a fractured branch of the dead elm that stands in the corner of the field and Gwen tells him how the tree, now the colour of weathered bone, was struck by lightning when she was a little girl. She wipes the sweat from her forehead with the heel of her hand, leaving a streak of dirt. It is all Jack can do to stop himself reaching over to brush it away.

They work on. Every so often Gwen straightens up, poised to speak, but then appears to change her mind and, blushing furiously, returns to her task with renewed vigour. Her behaviour strikes Jack as curious. She reminds him of the nuthatch – striking, but nervous.

‘Jack …’ she starts at last, resting on her hoe.