Back After the War
Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise
  3. About the Author
  4. Also by Anita Frank
  5. Note to Readers
  6. Dedication
  7. Part One
  8. Chapter One
  9. Chapter Two
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Chapter Seven
  15. Chapter Eight
  16. Chapter Nine
  17. Chapter Ten
  18. Chapter Eleven
  19. Chapter Twelve
  20. Chapter Thirteen
  21. Chapter Fourteen
  22. Chapter Fifteen
  23. Chapter Sixteen
  24. Chapter Seventeen
  25. Chapter Eighteen
  26. Chapter Nineteen
  27. Chapter Twenty
  28. Chapter Twenty-One
  29. Chapter Twenty-Two
  30. Chapter Twenty-Three
  31. Chapter Twenty-Four
  32. Chapter Twenty-Five
  33. Chapter Twenty-Six
  34. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  35. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  36. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  37. Chapter Thirty
  38. Chapter Thirty-One
  39. Chapter Thirty-Two
  40. Chapter Thirty-Three
  41. Chapter Thirty-Four
  42. Chapter Thirty-Five
  43. Chapter Thirty-Six
  44. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  45. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  46. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  47. Chapter Forty
  48. Part Two
  49. Chapter Forty-One
  50. Chapter Forty-Two
  51. Chapter Forty-Three
  52. Chapter Forty-Four
  53. Chapter Forty-Five
  54. Chapter Forty-Six
  55. Chapter Forty-Seven
  56. Chapter Forty-Eight
  57. Chapter Forty-Nine
  58. Chapter Fifty
  59. Chapter Fifty-One
  60. Chapter Fifty-Two
  61. Chapter Fifty-Three
  62. Chapter Fifty-Four
  63. Chapter Fifty-Five
  64. Chapter Fifty-Six
  65. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  66. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  67. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  68. Chapter Sixty
  69. Acknowledgements
  70. Extract
  71. Chapter One
  72. Chapter Two
  73. Chapter Three
  74. About the Publisher

Jim leaves him alone just before four, charging him with completing the task while he returns to the farm for the afternoon milking. Jack works consistently, pausing every so often to wipe the sweat from his forehead with the back of his arm, squinting up into the blue sky at a bird of prey he is unable to identify. As it wheels above him, he marvels at the unfamiliar peace of nature – the soft rush of rippling leaves, the warbling bird song, the thrum of bees crawling over the speckled petals of bramble blossom. For a moment, he is captivated by the fluttering dance of a butterfly, so blue it is as if a fragment of sky has fallen to earth to play upon the gentle breeze. For the first time since leaving Newcastle something settles inside him, filling the emptiness in the pit of his stomach, and the ever-present pain in his chest that has threatened to consume him recedes a fraction.

But it proves a false respite. Jenny requires no invitation to invade his thoughts, because she is already there, lingering in the dark recesses of his mind, a ghost he can sense if not see. Just as he is beginning to take succour in the new marvels that surround him, her spirit, unbidden, whispers into his consciousness and he finds himself thinking how she would have delighted in this bucolic scene. His vision blurs as an image of her tipping her freckled face to the sun burns itself into his mind’s eye. In an instant, with a flood of anguish and remorse, his quiet contentment is destroyed. He is grateful then that he is alone. As the sun becomes lost behind a cavalcade of cloud the raptor plummets upon its prey, and sobs wrack Jack’s body as he weeps for all that is lost and for acts that can never be undone.

Just after five, he gathers his things. His outpouring of grief has proven cathartic; his tension has ebbed, his anxieties – for the time being at least – have been ameliorated. The labour has also served to cleanse his soul, and as he leaves the small field, he pauses to survey the neat hedgerow and the thistle-free pasture. He savours his sense of satisfaction over his endeavours, manifested in the scratched and blistered hands he splays before him.

He takes a wrong turn on the way back to the farm and for a while is lost amongst banked narrow lanes bordered by fields which all the look the same. It is with some relief that he finally sees the white-rendered farmhouse rising like a beacon in the distance, and eventually he succeeds in guiding himself to it.