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Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise
  3. About the Author
  4. Also by Anita Frank
  5. Note to Readers
  6. Dedication
  7. Part One
  8. Chapter One
  9. Chapter Two
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Chapter Seven
  15. Chapter Eight
  16. Chapter Nine
  17. Chapter Ten
  18. Chapter Eleven
  19. Chapter Twelve
  20. Chapter Thirteen
  21. Chapter Fourteen
  22. Chapter Fifteen
  23. Chapter Sixteen
  24. Chapter Seventeen
  25. Chapter Eighteen
  26. Chapter Nineteen
  27. Chapter Twenty
  28. Chapter Twenty-One
  29. Chapter Twenty-Two
  30. Chapter Twenty-Three
  31. Chapter Twenty-Four
  32. Chapter Twenty-Five
  33. Chapter Twenty-Six
  34. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  35. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  36. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  37. Chapter Thirty
  38. Chapter Thirty-One
  39. Chapter Thirty-Two
  40. Chapter Thirty-Three
  41. Chapter Thirty-Four
  42. Chapter Thirty-Five
  43. Chapter Thirty-Six
  44. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  45. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  46. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  47. Chapter Forty
  48. Part Two
  49. Chapter Forty-One
  50. Chapter Forty-Two
  51. Chapter Forty-Three
  52. Chapter Forty-Four
  53. Chapter Forty-Five
  54. Chapter Forty-Six
  55. Chapter Forty-Seven
  56. Chapter Forty-Eight
  57. Chapter Forty-Nine
  58. Chapter Fifty
  59. Chapter Fifty-One
  60. Chapter Fifty-Two
  61. Chapter Fifty-Three
  62. Chapter Fifty-Four
  63. Chapter Fifty-Five
  64. Chapter Fifty-Six
  65. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  66. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  67. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  68. Chapter Sixty
  69. Acknowledgements
  70. Extract
  71. Chapter One
  72. Chapter Two
  73. Chapter Three
  74. About the Publisher

‘Yes, yes … it’s wonderful.’ She struggles with a button. ‘Some people might ask about Daddy, Tom. They might say things – like Nora did – about Daddy coming home.’ Her mind is racing as her tongue twists around the lies she must weave. Tom gazes at her with clear blue innocence. ‘Tom … Even though the war is over … there is no guarantee Daddy will come back. I don’t want you to get your hopes up …’

‘But why not? If the war is over, why can’t he come home?’

‘The war isn’t over for everyone, Tom, not yet. We don’t know exactly where Daddy is right now … And a lot can happen …’

‘But … he will come back … if he can? He will want to see me, won’t he?’

‘Oh Tom, of course, he would want to see you.’ She cups his cheek in her palm. Sensing his sudden vulnerability, she pulls him against her, closing her eyes as she breathes in the scent of his hair, soft against her cheek.

‘I hope my daddy comes home.’

Muffled against her chest, his little wish pierces her heart, and as he pulls free from her embrace, Gwen hates herself a little more.

In her own room, she sheds her work clothes and sloshes water into the bowl from the ewer. She rubs her face with a moistened flannel, roughly wiping away the day’s dirt ingrained in her pores, before running it around her neck and under her arms. It is so much harder to cleanse herself of the guilt evoked by Tom’s wish. She wipes until her skin is red, then throws the flannel back into the water, where it sinks below the surface. She thinks of Muriel’s words of warning, of her father’s disappointment and now of Tom’s hopes, and her stomach roils. She is unsure whether she has the strength to face her neighbours. The thought of their well-meant enquiries terrifies her.

She has no choice, she tells herself. To not go would merely be delaying the inevitable – inescapable questions are bound to come, sooner or later – but she must go prepared. Forewarned is forearmed after all.

She slides a cotton slip over her head, then wrenches open the wardrobe door. The swan-necked coat hangers scrape against the metal pole as she rifles through her sparse selection of clothes. She deliberates over a navy dress. She bought it long before the war, but Nora – who has proven herself to be surprisingly skilled with the Singer – has modified it, nipping in the waist, bringing up the hem, until it is almost in fashion. It will do, she decides.