Back After the War
Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise
  3. About the Author
  4. Also by Anita Frank
  5. Note to Readers
  6. Dedication
  7. Part One
  8. Chapter One
  9. Chapter Two
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Chapter Seven
  15. Chapter Eight
  16. Chapter Nine
  17. Chapter Ten
  18. Chapter Eleven
  19. Chapter Twelve
  20. Chapter Thirteen
  21. Chapter Fourteen
  22. Chapter Fifteen
  23. Chapter Sixteen
  24. Chapter Seventeen
  25. Chapter Eighteen
  26. Chapter Nineteen
  27. Chapter Twenty
  28. Chapter Twenty-One
  29. Chapter Twenty-Two
  30. Chapter Twenty-Three
  31. Chapter Twenty-Four
  32. Chapter Twenty-Five
  33. Chapter Twenty-Six
  34. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  35. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  36. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  37. Chapter Thirty
  38. Chapter Thirty-One
  39. Chapter Thirty-Two
  40. Chapter Thirty-Three
  41. Chapter Thirty-Four
  42. Chapter Thirty-Five
  43. Chapter Thirty-Six
  44. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  45. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  46. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  47. Chapter Forty
  48. Part Two
  49. Chapter Forty-One
  50. Chapter Forty-Two
  51. Chapter Forty-Three
  52. Chapter Forty-Four
  53. Chapter Forty-Five
  54. Chapter Forty-Six
  55. Chapter Forty-Seven
  56. Chapter Forty-Eight
  57. Chapter Forty-Nine
  58. Chapter Fifty
  59. Chapter Fifty-One
  60. Chapter Fifty-Two
  61. Chapter Fifty-Three
  62. Chapter Fifty-Four
  63. Chapter Fifty-Five
  64. Chapter Fifty-Six
  65. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  66. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  67. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  68. Chapter Sixty
  69. Acknowledgements
  70. Extract
  71. Chapter One
  72. Chapter Two
  73. Chapter Three
  74. About the Publisher

Gwen is trembling when she enters the milking parlour. Nora is at work in the second stall. Tom squats by the side of her milking stool, the soles of his wellies flat on the ground, the backs of his thighs plastered to his calves, his arms wrapped around his knees as he watches the jets of warm milk squirt into the pail. They both look around as Gwen comes in. She pauses while her eyes adjust to the dim light after the glare of the sun. Amusement plays across Nora’s pretty features and Gwen has to bite her tongue to stop herself from lashing out at the girl, for mocking what she doesn’t have the wherewithal to understand.

Tom scampers over to her as she buttons up her dairy coat. He shyly whispers for her attention.

‘Not now, Tom.’ She cannot bring herself to look at him, so profound is her sense of guilt. She has betrayed him his entire life, boldly feeding him lies, confident that she would never be caught out. All that mattered was that Tom should feel loved and cherished – by her and by his ‘father’.

Over the years she has constructed a castle for him built from untruths and mortared with falsities, never once considering how one crumbling block might bring the whole edifice tumbling down, never once considering that the king might one day return to reclaim his citadel and the little prince trapped inside.

And now Tom is looking at her with a blend of excitement, confusion and fear and she cannot bear it – she cannot bear the damage she has done.

‘Later,’ she says at last, cupping his chin in her hand and smoothing his cheek with her thumb. ‘Let Mummy get on with the milking for now. Why don’t you run and have a look in the pen and decide who I should bring in first? I think maybe Petal.’

He pulls a face. She knows Petal is his least favourite cow. ‘Tulip,’ he decides.

Gwen frowns playfully. ‘Are you sure? Mabel maybe? Go and have a look and I promise I’ll bring in the one you say.’

Placated, he races down the length of the building and out through the door to the pen. Gwen’s smile fades. She collects a pail from the stack by the doorway and nearly collides with Nora as she turns back. The Land Girl’s grin seems almost malicious.

‘You’re a sly one,’ Nora says, lifting her pail onto the hanging scales. ‘You never said your fella was such a looker.’ Noting the result, she lifts the pail clear and faces Gwen. ‘That photograph on your mantelpiece doesn’t do him justice.’

Gwen is unable to summon a reply. For some inexplicable reason, her cheeks grow hot. She is infuriated by Nora’s impish glee.

‘Hurry up, Nora, we’re running late as it is.’