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Chapters (43)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Dermot Healy
  4. Praise
  5. A GOAT’S SONG
  6. I. Christmas Day in the Workhouse
  7. 1. Waiting for Catherine
  8. 2. Walking the Triangle
  9. 3. A Taxi Through New York at Midnight
  10. 4. Shangrila
  11. 5. The Nomads
  12. 6. Christmas Morning
  13. 7. The Love Object
  14. 8. The Cockatiel
  15. II. The Salmon of Knowledge
  16. 9. The Death of Matti Bonner
  17. 10. The Fenian Ledger
  18. 11. The News at Six
  19. 12. The Summer Home
  20. 13. The Outsiders
  21. 14. As Gaelige
  22. 15. O’Muichin and the Cléirseach
  23. 16. The Salmon of Knowledge
  24. III. The Hares
  25. 17. The Mourners
  26. 18. The Greatest Man in Ballyconeely
  27. 19. Oh No, Don’t Stop the Carnival
  28. 20. The Illustrated Sons of Ireland
  29. 21. The Sea
  30. 22. Through the Downhill Tunnel
  31. 23. The Irishman
  32. 24. Madame George
  33. 25. What Did Shamey Coyle Do When He Left Prison?
  34. IV. The Musical Bridge
  35. 26. Flying in Belfast
  36. 27. Crossing the Musical Bridge
  37. 28. Searching for Jack in Yeats’ County
  38. 29. Guilt–tripping
  39. 30. Corrloch
  40. 31. The Cuckoo Mocks the Corncrake
  41. 32. A Time of Big Seas
  42. 33. Popular Songs
  43. 34. Happiness

For days he had been tormented by despair while the letters awaited him in the sick man’s house. While he was lying sleepless her love notes were sitting in Bernie’s house down the road. And by the time he had read them the affair was over. She had never intended coming down. Not from the moment the gardener told her I was back drinking. All that waiting was in vain. Words for which he had waited day after day now arrived when it was too late, and yet, like the first letter, they bore the news he craved. He lay on the bed, his heart beating. Is this it now? The same flesh-coloured light shone down. He jumped up and sat on the chair. But it was not hard enough. He lay on the cement floor in front of the smouldering fire. Again he was down to the one second. The minute that contained it. And the hour that contained the minute. The minutes that contained the seconds. The half-second.

Once more he made the journey to a phone.

He rang the theatre, but there came only a reply from the answering machine: Leave a message after the beep! The tape turned, but he said nothing, only whispered: “Catherine”. He did not know what to do. He went back to the cottage carrying a bottle of vodka. Terrible memories propelled him round the three rooms. But he could find no place where the reconciliation might begin.

“Jack!” Hugh cried from the kitchen. Hugh came into the bedroom. “Are you all right?”

“Of course I’m all right.”

“You’d better get up.”

“I am up!”

“No you’re not. You’re in bed.”

“I can see that.”

“Did you have anything to eat?”

“I’ve just had my breakfast, haven’t I,” he replied bad-temperedly. “Hugh?”

“Yeh.”

“Go away.”

“No.”

“Jesus Christ!”

“The kettle is on.”

“OK, OK. I’ll be with you in a minute.” He pulled on his yellow cape and green waterproof trousers.

“Jack,” said Hugh, “we’re not going out to sea.”

Jack sat on a kitchen chair.

“Where are we going?”

“That’s up to you.”

“I think we’ll go for a drink,” Jack said eventually.

“I’d like that,” said Hugh cheerfully.

Jack pulled off the oilskins.

“Will you drive me to Castlebar?”

“I will.”

“Will you look after the livestock? I’ll be a few days away.”

“The children will like that.”

“Take what it costs out of that.”

“I don’t need your money,” but Jack pressed a twenty-pound note into his pocket. He packed a bag. Put the wild kitten in a cardboard box. Called Daisy, and the dog leapt into the back of the car.

They drove down to O’Malley’s pub in Corrloch.

The bar was empty.

“Now I know what’s happening,” Jack declared.

“That’s good.”