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Chapters (43)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Dermot Healy
  4. Praise
  5. A GOAT’S SONG
  6. I. Christmas Day in the Workhouse
  7. 1. Waiting for Catherine
  8. 2. Walking the Triangle
  9. 3. A Taxi Through New York at Midnight
  10. 4. Shangrila
  11. 5. The Nomads
  12. 6. Christmas Morning
  13. 7. The Love Object
  14. 8. The Cockatiel
  15. II. The Salmon of Knowledge
  16. 9. The Death of Matti Bonner
  17. 10. The Fenian Ledger
  18. 11. The News at Six
  19. 12. The Summer Home
  20. 13. The Outsiders
  21. 14. As Gaelige
  22. 15. O’Muichin and the Cléirseach
  23. 16. The Salmon of Knowledge
  24. III. The Hares
  25. 17. The Mourners
  26. 18. The Greatest Man in Ballyconeely
  27. 19. Oh No, Don’t Stop the Carnival
  28. 20. The Illustrated Sons of Ireland
  29. 21. The Sea
  30. 22. Through the Downhill Tunnel
  31. 23. The Irishman
  32. 24. Madame George
  33. 25. What Did Shamey Coyle Do When He Left Prison?
  34. IV. The Musical Bridge
  35. 26. Flying in Belfast
  36. 27. Crossing the Musical Bridge
  37. 28. Searching for Jack in Yeats’ County
  38. 29. Guilt–tripping
  39. 30. Corrloch
  40. 31. The Cuckoo Mocks the Corncrake
  41. 32. A Time of Big Seas
  42. 33. Popular Songs
  43. 34. Happiness

But first he had a gin and tonic in the Plough bar alongside a group of Abbey technicians. Then a gin and tonic in Mulligan’s among the dockers and journalists. He coughed up the white phlegm that now attended all his drinking, shoved a finger into his hip and drank a third in a pub he didn’t know. The afternoon news came on the TV. He recognized the area of Belfast that was being shown.

“I used to live there,” he said to the drinker beside him.

“You’d want your head examined,” the man replied.

The last drink he took he could not swallow. He retched violently on the street. He crossed over at Trinity, sweating heavily. A pigeon swung out of Wicklow Street and, turning to the right, flew low up Grafton Street over the heads of the advancing, retreating pedestrians. He walked up Wicklow Street, then turned left. Everything was as he visualized it, except perhaps for the pedestrians about their business. He looked into each face as you’d look at the names of stations flying past from a train.

The railings came to an end on his left. Now was the moment. He walked like a man with a fine sense of purpose. He was about some urgent business. He lit a cigarette and looked at the sky. He asked someone the time. I have an arrangement, he said. But she did not appear. Yet he had so convinced himself she would be there that he traversed the street countless times.

He walked into a bar he knew she used.

“Where’s Catherine?” the barman repeated his question. “I saw her here – when was it? – oh, yesterday.”

Jack nodded. He understood. He was a day too late. This was how it would be from now on, he knew. They would arrive at a place where they thought they would meet. But they would arrive a day early, or a day too late. Soon it would be a year too early, or a year too late. But what length of time it was made no difference. He would imagine a place and go there to find she had just been, or hear, in the future, that she had just stepped through the door after he was gone.

He sponged smooth the wet cement floors. Threw bucketfuls of sea gravel on the path. And took a dead crow down out of the chimney.