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Chapters (43)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Dermot Healy
  4. Praise
  5. A GOAT’S SONG
  6. I. Christmas Day in the Workhouse
  7. 1. Waiting for Catherine
  8. 2. Walking the Triangle
  9. 3. A Taxi Through New York at Midnight
  10. 4. Shangrila
  11. 5. The Nomads
  12. 6. Christmas Morning
  13. 7. The Love Object
  14. 8. The Cockatiel
  15. II. The Salmon of Knowledge
  16. 9. The Death of Matti Bonner
  17. 10. The Fenian Ledger
  18. 11. The News at Six
  19. 12. The Summer Home
  20. 13. The Outsiders
  21. 14. As Gaelige
  22. 15. O’Muichin and the Cléirseach
  23. 16. The Salmon of Knowledge
  24. III. The Hares
  25. 17. The Mourners
  26. 18. The Greatest Man in Ballyconeely
  27. 19. Oh No, Don’t Stop the Carnival
  28. 20. The Illustrated Sons of Ireland
  29. 21. The Sea
  30. 22. Through the Downhill Tunnel
  31. 23. The Irishman
  32. 24. Madame George
  33. 25. What Did Shamey Coyle Do When He Left Prison?
  34. IV. The Musical Bridge
  35. 26. Flying in Belfast
  36. 27. Crossing the Musical Bridge
  37. 28. Searching for Jack in Yeats’ County
  38. 29. Guilt–tripping
  39. 30. Corrloch
  40. 31. The Cuckoo Mocks the Corncrake
  41. 32. A Time of Big Seas
  42. 33. Popular Songs
  43. 34. Happiness

“Take a taste of this,” he said, picking some wild leaves. They both walked on chewing.

“My God,” shouted Catherine, “is this stuff poisonous?”

Suddenly he realized that his mouth was red hot. They stopped and started spitting furiously.

“I thought,” he said, “they would taste of lemon.”

“Sometimes, you know,” she said, “I despair of you.”

It was a time of big seas.

At night they spoke of Scotland in the bar.

He did not, on wakening, put out a hand to touch her.

Through his mind raced all the bad things. The light of the morning reached into the room full of a wicked shining truth. They were bodies in a pure stupor. If she touched him, he would freeze. For he felt his body to be shamelessly packed with sweat, urine and excrement. Catherine sat up, gripped her knees and looked towards the window. Then she looked at him a second. He wanted to disappear and come back in another shape to please her. But she misunderstood this fear and self-loathing. She leaned over, nevertheless, and kissed him. But then turned tetchy at his lack of response.

She got out of bed, went to the toilet, then sat looking out of her window. Eventually she went about her business of half-dressing.

She began to test him, seeing how far she could go saying wild things, then wilder things, things that once used to unsettle him, make him dizzy. In her melancholia she looked dated and a little odd. She talked indecently of all his friends, and her lovers, and the village folk. He, not to be outdone, continued the same comical, slanderous talk. His hands joined between his knees like an embarrassed schoolboy, he told her that he often took her erotic asides as somehow a slight on himself.

“Can we go somewhere together for a holiday – somewhere foreign?” she asked.

“Like where?”

“Anywhere. Majorca. Cyprus – places where normal people go on holidays.”

“You really want to go?”

“It will be good for us. Cheap wine, swimming, sunshine and no wind.”

“OK,” he said.

“But where?” she asked.

“Some place” said Jack, “with a bar.”

“Can we afford it?”

“I’ll have a few bob from the fishing. And there’ll be an advance.”

The next day she booked them into Majorca through a travel agency that was based in a draper’s shop on the Moy.

The night before they were to leave they walked up the town of Castlebar. While she went shopping he sat in the car. She stepped out of a boutique holding a new dress before her for his opinion. He nodded. She leaned out of a shop with a scarf round her head.

As she walked happily up the street towards him holding her new clothes he was overcome with sentiment. She kissed his eyes. In a bar in Crossmolina they had their first drink in a few days. She put her arm over his shoulders.