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Chapters (43)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Dermot Healy
  4. Praise
  5. A GOAT’S SONG
  6. I. Christmas Day in the Workhouse
  7. 1. Waiting for Catherine
  8. 2. Walking the Triangle
  9. 3. A Taxi Through New York at Midnight
  10. 4. Shangrila
  11. 5. The Nomads
  12. 6. Christmas Morning
  13. 7. The Love Object
  14. 8. The Cockatiel
  15. II. The Salmon of Knowledge
  16. 9. The Death of Matti Bonner
  17. 10. The Fenian Ledger
  18. 11. The News at Six
  19. 12. The Summer Home
  20. 13. The Outsiders
  21. 14. As Gaelige
  22. 15. O’Muichin and the Cléirseach
  23. 16. The Salmon of Knowledge
  24. III. The Hares
  25. 17. The Mourners
  26. 18. The Greatest Man in Ballyconeely
  27. 19. Oh No, Don’t Stop the Carnival
  28. 20. The Illustrated Sons of Ireland
  29. 21. The Sea
  30. 22. Through the Downhill Tunnel
  31. 23. The Irishman
  32. 24. Madame George
  33. 25. What Did Shamey Coyle Do When He Left Prison?
  34. IV. The Musical Bridge
  35. 26. Flying in Belfast
  36. 27. Crossing the Musical Bridge
  37. 28. Searching for Jack in Yeats’ County
  38. 29. Guilt–tripping
  39. 30. Corrloch
  40. 31. The Cuckoo Mocks the Corncrake
  41. 32. A Time of Big Seas
  42. 33. Popular Songs
  43. 34. Happiness

“Nothing happened, Jack. Nothing,” she said, growing anxious. “I was only trifling with the implications of having an affair. I am proud of my fidelity to you.”

“Did you fuck with him, whoever he was?”

“I was happy to feel that I was not open to a sexual invitation. A man asked me the other night to go to bed with him, but I did not.”

“And the next night?”

“Last night I began to entertain a romantic notion of him. It’s because of all this uncertainty. I wanted company. We had arranged to meet for drinks. We drank too much. I was trying to skim over the squalor of the situation by flirting with him. I told him I had sworn a vow of fidelity to you. He said that was very old-fashioned.”

“Did he now!” he spat.

“He wanted me to go to bed with him. I said it would be on his terms, in that I would keep it a secret from you. Therefore I would only be using him.”

“That would not come as something new to you.”

“I can see no point in continuing this conversation!” Then she screamed: “And how about that bitch you were with?”

“Jesus Christ, you’re not going to start that again.”

“Start what!” she hissed. “Start what!”

“Keep your voice down,” he said.

“Well then, stop interrogating me. I would have left,” said Catherine, “but I couldn’t drive back drunk. So I fell asleep there on a mattress on the floor. It was as simple as that. He went to his bed and I fell asleep in mine.”

“Yes?”

“Do you have to know?”

“Yes.”

“I fell asleep on the floor,” said Catherine, “and woke to find him moving against me. We started moving, then we stopped.”

“Did you come?” he said in a dry, even voice.

“Stop interrogating me, Jack.”

“Did you come with him?”

“Stop it,” she called.

She hit him. He kept his face exactly where it was and she hit him again. Then all of a sudden he bounced his forehead lightly off hers. It happened so suddenly that for a moment she did not respond. Then she opened her mouth to scream. He put his hand tightly over her mouth till the scream passed. Her eyes widened in terror. Then the terror passed. Jack went outside and sat on the step of the house. She opened the door and stood behind him.

She said: “There were no orgasms. Nobody came, I swear that. I told him I loved you. That we had made a vow.”

She started to move towards him, crying. “You’ve asked me,” she said, “and I’ve been honest. I’ve told you everything.”

“I need to get out of here,” said Jack. “I need to walk.”

“Can I go with you?” she asked timidly.

A fog had settled on the shore.