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Chapters (43)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Dermot Healy
  4. Praise
  5. A GOAT’S SONG
  6. I. Christmas Day in the Workhouse
  7. 1. Waiting for Catherine
  8. 2. Walking the Triangle
  9. 3. A Taxi Through New York at Midnight
  10. 4. Shangrila
  11. 5. The Nomads
  12. 6. Christmas Morning
  13. 7. The Love Object
  14. 8. The Cockatiel
  15. II. The Salmon of Knowledge
  16. 9. The Death of Matti Bonner
  17. 10. The Fenian Ledger
  18. 11. The News at Six
  19. 12. The Summer Home
  20. 13. The Outsiders
  21. 14. As Gaelige
  22. 15. O’Muichin and the Cléirseach
  23. 16. The Salmon of Knowledge
  24. III. The Hares
  25. 17. The Mourners
  26. 18. The Greatest Man in Ballyconeely
  27. 19. Oh No, Don’t Stop the Carnival
  28. 20. The Illustrated Sons of Ireland
  29. 21. The Sea
  30. 22. Through the Downhill Tunnel
  31. 23. The Irishman
  32. 24. Madame George
  33. 25. What Did Shamey Coyle Do When He Left Prison?
  34. IV. The Musical Bridge
  35. 26. Flying in Belfast
  36. 27. Crossing the Musical Bridge
  37. 28. Searching for Jack in Yeats’ County
  38. 29. Guilt–tripping
  39. 30. Corrloch
  40. 31. The Cuckoo Mocks the Corncrake
  41. 32. A Time of Big Seas
  42. 33. Popular Songs
  43. 34. Happiness

He let a certain amount of time pass. Then he said: “I have just realized that you don’t believe in fiction.”

“You’re wrong,” she answered with conviction. “My trouble is I believe it totally, or not at all.” She looked at him with mock scorn. “In that, I’m like my father.”

They went to a party thrown by Helen, a friend of Catherine’s. He stood by Helen’s side with a tall cold glass of white wine.

“Are you a feminist, too?” asked Jack.

“I like men too much,” she said, “to be a feminist. I need nice male chauvinists to carry my shopping home.”

“You’re disgraceful!” Catherine laughed.

Helen’s room was full of charts of the human body and the human brain.

“Are you by any chance an astrologer?” he asked.

“Not quite,” she replied, “I’m a psychiatric nurse, you might say.”

“Don’t start her,” said Catherine. “Talk of the brain only brings bright spots in front of my eyes. At school certain puzzles used to make me feel faint.”

“Now it’s sex,” said Jack.

“Stop,” said Catherine, poking him.

Then she turned serious.

“All my life I’ve feared madness,” she said.

“And I wanted to commit suicide,” said Helen.

“This is a lovely conversation,” said Jack.

“And then,” said Catherine, “there’s jealousy.”

“Oh,” agreed Helen.

“For a whole year before I met him I was negligent of sex because all of my affairs provoked in me such wanton acts of jealousy that I was afraid someone might get killed.”

“Watch yourself, Jack,” said Helen.

“In fact,” said Catherine, “once I was alone I thought I could please myself physically more than other people could. When I was lonely I used stroke my own breasts.”

Helen nodded: “You can run out of possibilities there in time.”

“Yes,” said Catherine, and she took Jack’s arm.

“I would give anything to be as happy as ye are,” said Helen.

“We have our own troubles,” said Jack.

Then Helen leaned up and put her arms around him and kissed him. It was a bright sisterly kiss. Then she kissed Catherine. “Ye are lucky to have each other,” she said, “and remember, I love you both.” Catherine never left Jack’s side. Helen sang. Catherine sang. Jack danced. Then, towards dawn, they took a taxi home with a driver that knew them both. When Jack went forward to open the door of the house, the taxi-driver whispered to Catherine as she counted out the fare in the half-light of the car interior: “He is in danger here, ye know.”

“What?” she asked, terrified.

“I don’t wanna scar ye,” he said, “but I’ve heard stories about him swinging in and out of pubs with the wrong people. Like it’s none of my business, but you should tell him to be more careful. The whole sectarian thing could start again in the morning.”