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Chapters (43)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Dermot Healy
  4. Praise
  5. A GOAT’S SONG
  6. I. Christmas Day in the Workhouse
  7. 1. Waiting for Catherine
  8. 2. Walking the Triangle
  9. 3. A Taxi Through New York at Midnight
  10. 4. Shangrila
  11. 5. The Nomads
  12. 6. Christmas Morning
  13. 7. The Love Object
  14. 8. The Cockatiel
  15. II. The Salmon of Knowledge
  16. 9. The Death of Matti Bonner
  17. 10. The Fenian Ledger
  18. 11. The News at Six
  19. 12. The Summer Home
  20. 13. The Outsiders
  21. 14. As Gaelige
  22. 15. O’Muichin and the Cléirseach
  23. 16. The Salmon of Knowledge
  24. III. The Hares
  25. 17. The Mourners
  26. 18. The Greatest Man in Ballyconeely
  27. 19. Oh No, Don’t Stop the Carnival
  28. 20. The Illustrated Sons of Ireland
  29. 21. The Sea
  30. 22. Through the Downhill Tunnel
  31. 23. The Irishman
  32. 24. Madame George
  33. 25. What Did Shamey Coyle Do When He Left Prison?
  34. IV. The Musical Bridge
  35. 26. Flying in Belfast
  36. 27. Crossing the Musical Bridge
  37. 28. Searching for Jack in Yeats’ County
  38. 29. Guilt–tripping
  39. 30. Corrloch
  40. 31. The Cuckoo Mocks the Corncrake
  41. 32. A Time of Big Seas
  42. 33. Popular Songs
  43. 34. Happiness

Sometimes he would meet Catherine after rehearsal in one of these cafés, or in Lavery’s or in the Crown. Or sometimes in the Lincoln Inn bar across from the BBC where lawyers and journalists mixed.

If other members of the cast came with her, then he would have to endure long periods of silence as the rest talked with feminist bravado and cynically told each other the real version of what was happening – in politics and in theatre. As he listened to them talking, the distinction between both forms of human activity were constantly blurred. Everything could be told in terms of performance.

Always they referred to the “Hidden Agenda”. There was “A Hidden Agenda” in the politics of the theatre, in the politics of the BBC, in the politics of Northern Ireland. It was the secret stimulus that kept the conspirators busy. The “Hidden Agenda” was base camp.

One of the women said she’d seen one of his plays in London. “It didn’t seem funny to me,” she said.

“Jack is a realist,” interrupted Catherine.

“I thought the characters were playing at being peasants.”

“They were,” agreed Jack.

She hiccupped. “It was way too romantic, and intellectual.” She hiccupped again. “All those primates talking philosophy. I didn’t understand it.”

“Don’t worry,” said Jack, “the children’s version will be out next year.”

“How would you know –” and she waited for the hiccup that did not come “– what happens here?”

“Would you like me to slap your back?” asked Jack.

“I asked you how would you know what happens here?” With a particularly gracious yet hostile look she lifted her glass of lager and considered him.

“Who do you work for?” he asked.

“RTE,” she snapped. “I’ve told you that before.”

“Oh yes, that’s right,” he said.

“In fact,” she continued, “what are you doing here?” She gave a polite yawn. “Don’t tell me you’re here because of your art.”

“I came to study you,” said Jack, “as you have studied those out there, after your fashion.”

“He’s with me,” said Catherine.

“Oh, I forgot,” the woman answered and she smiled triumphantly.

“I think it’s time,” said Catherine, “we went.”

They’d taxi home and light a fire. As she changed her clothes she’d have stories to tell of directors and fellow actors and scripts that went awry. He would recount some of his day, leaving out any stupid things he might have done. Their sense of privacy would return. Since the moment they had decided to live together they had to lean heavily on imagination to see them through. The deliciousness would turn to obsession. Each looked forward with increasing anxiety to these few short hours together, and then, when they would meet, demons would take their place. The hours together seemed too short for them to establish each other’s identity again.