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Chapters (43)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Dermot Healy
  4. Praise
  5. A GOAT’S SONG
  6. I. Christmas Day in the Workhouse
  7. 1. Waiting for Catherine
  8. 2. Walking the Triangle
  9. 3. A Taxi Through New York at Midnight
  10. 4. Shangrila
  11. 5. The Nomads
  12. 6. Christmas Morning
  13. 7. The Love Object
  14. 8. The Cockatiel
  15. II. The Salmon of Knowledge
  16. 9. The Death of Matti Bonner
  17. 10. The Fenian Ledger
  18. 11. The News at Six
  19. 12. The Summer Home
  20. 13. The Outsiders
  21. 14. As Gaelige
  22. 15. O’Muichin and the Cléirseach
  23. 16. The Salmon of Knowledge
  24. III. The Hares
  25. 17. The Mourners
  26. 18. The Greatest Man in Ballyconeely
  27. 19. Oh No, Don’t Stop the Carnival
  28. 20. The Illustrated Sons of Ireland
  29. 21. The Sea
  30. 22. Through the Downhill Tunnel
  31. 23. The Irishman
  32. 24. Madame George
  33. 25. What Did Shamey Coyle Do When He Left Prison?
  34. IV. The Musical Bridge
  35. 26. Flying in Belfast
  36. 27. Crossing the Musical Bridge
  37. 28. Searching for Jack in Yeats’ County
  38. 29. Guilt–tripping
  39. 30. Corrloch
  40. 31. The Cuckoo Mocks the Corncrake
  41. 32. A Time of Big Seas
  42. 33. Popular Songs
  43. 34. Happiness

“Well, you frightened him away anyhow,” Sara laughed. She came abruptly to her feet, as was her habit, drew her dress above her knees, and checked the back of her calves for dirt kicked up from the road. “She said to me,” and Sara mimicked her mother, “that I was ‘to do nothing that Catherine wouldn’t do’. I said: ‘Ara Mammy, I don’t like men.’ ‘Aye, well,’ she said, ‘but you can’t keep away from them either.’”

“You’re perverse,” said Catherine.

“Don’t think I don’t see you at the window looking.”

“I do not!”

“Men are right about one thing.”

“What’s that?”

“It’s the quiet ones you have to watch,” she said.

A fine bristle soon appeared on Catherine’s skull. With delight she watched her hair grow back in blond tufts and wisps. The mixture delighted her. It grew together first at the back of her head. It seemed to take for ever. She sat in a chair in the garden and Sara rubbed ointment into her scalp to hurry it on.

With the return of her hair, she felt ashamed of how much she had withdrawn, but she was not ashamed in the least to discover that she had a woman’s vanity. Hair made her feel sane.

And as she returned to normality, she pledged herself to her mother, saying I’ve been too long in mourning for my father, and the thought of the woman upstairs, with the marble chips gripped tight in her clenched fist as she slept, made the daughter flinch with an ache of painful nostalgia and guilt.

Her scalp in this disorder, Catherine bravely answered the door to Jack Ferris. He stood there with a pair of football boots swinging round his neck and a flashlight in his hand.

“She’s not here.”

“Sara?”

“Who else?”

“You’re looking well.”

“Oh but you have a nerve.”

“It’s the same with a beard. Every time I shave, the harder it gets.” He felt his chin. “Not that I have much anyway. When I was young I shaved my legs. And begod if nothing grew back at all.”

He laughed at himself. He had hair that looked as if it had been dyed jet black, and sleepy eyes, mischievous, of a pale sensual grey. They seemed fixed beyond what he was looking at till he took you into view, and he was saying – none of this is true, it’s all absurd.

“There’s a storm coming,” he said.

“Is there?”

“An almighty one. From the northwest.”

“I’ll bear it in mind.”

“Do.”

“Why don’t you sit down?”

He dusted his knees with his cap and sat down, looked about him and hummed a bar. Could it be him? she wondered.

“Sara is in Belmullet, I think,” she said sharply. “As a matter of fact I thought she was with you.”

“Ah.” He nodded. Continued humming.