Despite his tough exterior, she knew Bodie wouldn’t leave her when she’d asked him to stay. Strange to think how fully she trusted him to be good to her when she and Richard had dated for over a year and she knew he wouldn’t have hesitated to leave.

“You’re the boss,” Bodie said, as if that explained why he was still standing in her living room. “If you want me to decorate a tree, I’ll decorate a tree.”

She wanted to hug him.

“Thank you.” She clung to her cocoa mug and pretended to take another sip. Pretended because the cup was empty.

“Can I carry that to the kitchen for you?”

She started to say no but a trip to the kitchen would delay what she wanted delayed.

“That would be great.” She put her mug on the tray and she and Harry followed him to the kitchen. After he sat it down on the kitchen counter, she rinsed out their mugs and saucers, then placed them inside the dishwasher.

When she turned, Bodie was leaned against the countertop, watching her. Harry stood next to him, waiting to see what they’d do next or perhaps just hoping they had a few leftover cookies they planned to share with him.

“We don’t have to decorate the tree tonight.”

Oh yeah, he was on to her. His insight had her feeling guilty that she was dilly-dallying, that she was putting any type of damper on Christmas. She was supposed to be giving him Christmas joy.

“Then it would just be waiting.”

“I’m sure there are other things waiting on your attention that you’ve been putting off.”

“Plenty.”

“Then do those and come back to the tree when you’re ready. For that matter, you could help me install the vanities.”

Sarah closed her eyes. “I feel ridiculous.”

“Because?”

“Because I am so excited about that tree and yet I am procrastinating on decorating it.”

“Maybe you need to buy new decorations,” he suggested, the simple phrase clearly broadcasting that he’d accurately read what was bothering her.

She could. Except money was an issue. As would be looking at a tree in Aunt Jean’s house that held ornaments other than the ones Sarah cherished. She shook her head.

“I love those ornaments. Forgive me. I’m just being silly.”

“She must have been a wonderful person.”

“She was.” The tears she’d been holding back filled her eyes. “I’ve tried to keep myself busy enough that I haven’t thought about just how different all my Christmases are going to be without her.”

She hadn’t wanted to do this, but talking to Bodie was so easy.