Chapters (92)
- Cover
- Maps
- Epigraph
- Prologue
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Chapter 68
- Chapter 69
- Chapter 70
- Chapter 71
- Chapter 72
- Chapter 73
- Chapter 74
- Chapter 75
- Chapter 76
- Chapter 77
- Chapter 78
- Chapter 79
- Chapter 80
- Chapter 81
- Chapter 82
- Chapter 83
- Chapter 84
- Chapter 85
- Chapter 86
- Epilogue
- About the Author
Aylin slowly shakes her head, then looks up and meets her eyes for a second before averting them again.
‘I’m so ashamed, Karen. And I know what you want me to do but reporting him will only make it worse. I’m to blame too, you know, for things having ended up like this.’
‘I’m not going to force you do anything,’ Karen replies gently. ‘From now on, you make all the decisions. Except for one.’
Aylin stares mutely at her mug.
‘I never want to hear you say this is your fault again. I don’t want you to even think it. Am I making myself clear?’
Aylin still doesn’t respond, just sniffles and wipes her nose on her wrist.
‘I’ve seen this before,’ Karen says, ‘so I know what’s going to happen if you change your mind and go back. It’s only a matter of time.’
Aylin slowly shakes her head.
‘He’s never going to let me get away.’
‘You did get away. You’ve already left him; the hardest part is behind you.’
Aylin lifts up her head at that, looks Karen straight in the eye and gives her an almost pitying smile.
‘This is only the beginning,’ she says. ‘Don’t you see that?’
Karen waits for her to continue.
‘You’ve tried before?’ she asks eventually.
‘Twice. Once just after Mikkel was born and again early last year.’
‘What happened? Drink some of your hot chocolate before it gets cold,’ she adds and watches as Aylin obediently raises her mug and grimaces when it bumps against her split lip.
Karen doesn’t touch her own glass.
‘The first time, I made it a few blocks down the street. I just took the children and walked out the front door without any idea where I was going. Stupid, obviously; he noticed within five minutes and caught up before we had even crossed Kaupinggate.’
‘What happened afterwards?’
‘He actually calmed down for a while after that, as though what he’d done had scared him, too. He promised it would never happen again, but, well, you know . . .’
‘Was that the first time he hit you?’
‘It was the first time he drew blood. Before then, it was mostly grabbing and the occasional slap. I think maybe that was what made me walk out that time, seeing the blood on the sofa. He accidentally got my nose,’ she adds. ‘I don’t think he meant to.’
Karen closes her eyes briefly and forces her anger down. Not now, not yet.
‘And the time after that, what happened then?’
Aylin raises her mug again but puts it back down without drinking.