Back West of the Jordan
Chapters (45)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Make It Delicious
  4. PART ONE
  5. 1 HALA Going Home
  6. 2 MAWAL Nawara
  7. 3 SORAYA Fire
  8. 4 KHADIJA Sand and Fire
  9. PART TWO
  10. 5 HALA Mourning
  11. 6 MAWAL Crossing
  12. 7 SORAYA Visas
  13. 8 MAWAL Flowers from My Roza
  14. 9 KHADIJA School
  15. 10 HALA White
  16. 11 HALA Weddings
  17. 12 SORAYA Success
  18. 13 MAWAL America
  19. 14 KHADIJA Birthday
  20. 15 SORAYA The American Dream
  21. 16 KHADIJA Social Studies
  22. 17 SORAYA Fancy-Dance Man
  23. 18 HALA Sharif
  24. 19 MAWAL Looking
  25. 20 HALA Aqaba
  26. 21 HALA Visiting
  27. 22 MAWAL The Beautiful Gift
  28. 23 KHADIJA Traditions
  29. 24 HALA Dress Up
  30. 25 HALA Backgammon
  31. PART THREE
  32. 26 KHADIJA Sleeping Over
  33. 27 SORAYA Love Story/Remembering Story
  34. 28 KHADIJA Mothers
  35. 29 MAWAL Maziuna
  36. 30 SORAYA Clouds
  37. 31 KHADIJA Long Distance
  38. 32 HALA Old Men
  39. PART FOUR
  40. 33 HALA Naked Underneath
  41. 34 MAWAL Safe
  42. 35 KHADIJA Fire
  43. 36 SORAYA Just Down the Road
  44. 37 HALA Bare Walls
  45. Acknowledgments

It took me less than a week to learn how to ride it without falling. Someone always stayed with me to make sure I didn’t go into the main paved street at the end of the dirt road that led up to our house. I learned to give rides to the other kids as well.

On one of those days, Hanan came by with her mother while we were all taking turns riding. “Hi, Hanan, how was—” but before I could ask her about her week in the city, she pointed to the bicycle.

“Whose is that?”

“Mine,” I told her proudly.

“Where did you get it?”

“My uncle Hamdi and auntie Fay brought it from America. I already know how to ride it. Watch me.”

I stepped up on the bike and began to ride down the drive. I stopped to look back. Hanan was smiling and I felt I could fly as I rode back to her.

“Here, you can try it,” I told her.

“I don’t know how,” she said.

“I’ll help you. It’s really easy.”

Hanan took the handlebars and stood for a moment, as if she was studying it and trying to figure out what to do.

“Like this,” I told her and showed her how to get on. “I’ll hold the back for you. All you have to do is pedal.”

She got on the seat and I held it steady. She put her feet on the pedals and I held the back as she moved forward. “Help!” she cried as she fell, but I caught her before she was all the way on the ground.

“It’s okay,” I told her as I helped her up. “You will fall a couple of times. That’s the only way to learn.”

We tried it again, but the same thing happened and she still wasn’t sitting straight in the seat. “Why don’t we wait until my uncle gets back or my mother comes down to help.”

“No, let’s try again.”

We kept trying, but she couldn’t get any speed and would fall over because I couldn’t hold the bike steady. We had to stop because my mother called me to come in.

The next day I found my mother alone in the sitting room embroidering.

“Where are Uncle Hamdi and Auntie Fay?” I asked her.

“They are at your grandmother’s.” She smiled at me and put her embroidery aside. I lay down with my head in her lap. I love the feeling of my mother’s fingers wandering through my hair.

“What’s this cloud hovering over Little Miss Sunshine?” She poked my nose, my forehead, my chin, and my belly.

“Nothing,” I said, though I felt strange inside, like something bad was going to happen.