“But she couldn’t do it. She didn’t have the painting anymore. At first she had hung it on the wall above the headboard of her bed, but at some point it had begun to embarrass her—it seemed crude and sentimental, and she didn’t want her friends to see it, so she put it in her closet, out of sight. If her father noticed, he never said a word. Then one day when she was cleaning out her old stuff—her baby things, dolls and toys she was never going to touch again—she put the painting in a box along with everything else and carried it down to the Goodwill store as a donation.

“But she couldn’t bring herself to admit that, not when her father was gaunt and yellow and breathing with the help of an oxygen tank. So she nodded and said she’d bring the painting next time she came to the hospital.

“Back home, she went through her closet as if she expected to find the painting still there, knowing all the time it was gone. She even went to the thrift shop and asked about it, but the painting must have been sold or recycled long since. So when she came to the hospital the next day her father was disappointed, and she made some excuse and promised she’d remember to bring it tomorrow, a lie that only compounded her shame. And she came back to the hospital room every day, day after day, and every day he was weaker and more frightened, and every day he asked about the painting, and every day she promised she’d bring it to him. Of course he died without seeing it.”

There was no sound but the groaning of the ship’s hull. Fragments of the Arch were coming in more often now, their radar tracks rolling across the display like bright blue raindrops. Turk was quiet for a long time. Finally he said, “That’s Allison’s grief—the original Allison. She lived and died with it. You don’t need to carry it for her.”

“No more than you need to carry the burden of that old killing.”

“You don’t see any difference?”

He was still avoiding the truth and he had missed the point of my story. So I tried to lead him to it more bluntly: