He studied the confidence with which the oldest—a boy of sixteen—

moved among his younger siblings. He studied the guileless innocence the youngest played up, to get what he wanted. He studied the way their faces twisted into a pantomime of emotions like annoyance and disgust and anger. Most of all, he studied their joy. The way their eyes lit up when they were gleeful, the varying tones of their laughter, the dozen ways their smiles shone or softened depending on the exact nature of their delight.

Eli had never known there were so many kinds of happiness, let alone so many ways to express it.

But his study was cut short when, just two weeks into his stay with the Russos, Eli found himself uprooted again, deposited with another family in another house.

Act normal, the Russo girl had said.

And so Eli tried again. Started fresh. It wasn’t a perfect imitation, not by far. But it was an improvement. The children at this new house still called him names, but the names had changed.

Timid, quiet, weirdo had been replaced by strange, curious, intense.

Soon came another family, and another chance.

Another opportunity to reinvent, to modify, to adjust aspects of that act.

Eli tested his theater on the families as if they were an audience, and used their feedback, the immediate, constant feedback, to tweak his performance.

Slowly strange, curious, intense had been refined, honed into charming, focused, clever.

Then something else changed.

Another car pulled up, and took him away, but this time it didn’t drop him off with another of his father’s flock.

This time, it took him to family.

XV

THE FIFTH HOME

PATRICK Cardale did not believe in God.

He was John’s estranged nephew, the son of a dead aunt that Eli had never met. Patrick was a professor at a local college, married to a painter named Lisa. They didn’t have children. No one for Eli to mimic.

No curtain of normalcy or noise for him to slip behind.

Eli sat on the sofa across from them. A captured audience. A solo act.

“How old are you?” asked Patrick. “Twelve?”

“Almost thirteen,” said Eli. It had been more than six months since

Pastor Cardale’s accident.

“I’m sorry it took us so long,” said Patrick, hands between his knees.

Lisa put a hand on his shoulder. “We’ll be honest, it wasn’t an easy decision.”

Patrick shifted. “I knew you’d been raised a certain way. And I knew I couldn’t give you that. John and I, we didn’t see eye to eye.”

“Neither did we,” said Eli.

He realized he was making them uncomfortable, so he smiled. Not too wide, just enough to let Patrick know that he was okay.

“Come on,” said Lisa, rising. “I’ll show you to your room.”

Eli rose to follow her.

“We can find you a church,” she added, leading him down the hall.