Chapters (43)
- Vacuum Diagrams by Stephen Baxter
- Foreword
- Eve
- PART 1 ERA: Expansion
- The Sun-People
- The Logic Pool
- Gossamer
- Cilia-of-Gold
- Lieserl
- PART 2 ERA: Squeem Occupation
- Pilot
- The Xeelee Flower
- More Than Time or Distance
- The Switch
- PART 3 ERA: Qax Occupation
- Blue Shift
- The Quagma Datum
- Planck Zero
- PART 4 ERA: Assimilation
- The Godel Sunflowers
- Vacuum Diagrams
- PART 5 ERA: The War to End Wars
- Stowaway
- The Tyranny of Heaven
- Hero
- PART 6 ERA: Flight
- Secret History
- PART 7 ERA: Photino Victory
- Shell
- The Eighth Room
- The Baryonic Lords
- C.A.D. 500,000,000
- Epilogue
- The Xeelee Sequence-Timeline
- Permissions
- About the Author
- Notes
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- 3
- 4
- 5
- 6
The Sun burned through thinned air from an unbearably blue sky. Her vision seemed telescopic. She looked at distant groups of children and adults playing -- far away, halfway to the horizon -- and it was as if she was among them herself. Her feet, still uncertain, pressed into gritty, moist sand. She could taste the brine salt on the air; it seemed to permeate her very skin.
She found mussels clinging to a ruined pier. She prised them away with a toy spade, and gazed, fascinated, at their slime-dripping feet.
She sat on the sand with her parents, feeling her light costume stretch over her still-growing limbs. They played a simple game, of counters moving over a floating Virtual board, pictures of ladders and hissing snakes. There was laughter, mock complaints by her father, elaborate pantomimes of cheating.
Her senses were electric. It was a wonderful day, full of light and joy, extraordinarily vivid sensations. Her parents loved her -- she could see that in the way they moved with each other, came to her, played with her.
They must know she was different; but they didn't seem to care.
She didn't want to be different -- to be wrong. She closed her mind against the thoughts, and concentrated on the snakes, the ladders, the sparkling counters.
Every morning she woke up in a bed that felt too small.
Lieserl liked the garden. She liked to watch the flowers straining their tiny, pretty faces towards the Sun, as the great light climbed patiently across the sky. The sunlight made the flowers grow, her father told her. Maybe she was like a flower, she thought, growing too quickly in all this sunlight.
On the fifth day she was taken to a wide, irregularly shaped, colorful classroom. This room was full of children -- other children! -- and toys, drawings, books. Sunlight flooded the room; perhaps there was some clear dome stretched over the open walls.
The children sat on the floor and played with paints and dolls, or talked earnestly to brilliantly-colored Virtual figures -- smiling birds, tiny clowns. The children turned to watch as she came in with her mother, their faces round and bright, like dapples of sunlight through leaves. She'd never been so close to other children before. Were these children different, too?
One small girl scowled at her, and Lieserl quailed against her mother's legs. But her mother's familiar warm hands pressed into her back. "Go ahead. It's all right."
As she stared at the unknown girl's scowling face, Lieserl's questions, her too-adult, too-sophisticated doubts, seemed to evaporate. Suddenly, all that mattered to her -- all that mattered in the world -- was that she should be accepted by these children -- that they wouldn't know she was different.