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Chapters (63)
  1. Title Page
  2. Copyright Page
  3. CONTENTS
  4. Foreword to The Cullen Collection
  5. Introduction to There and Back
  6. 1. Bookbinder and Son
  7. 2. Brother and Sister
  8. 3. Simon Armour
  9. 4. A Lost Shoe
  10. 5. The Library
  11. 6. Alice
  12. 7. Mortgrange
  13. 8. Barbara Wylder
  14. 9. Mrs. Wylder
  15. 10. Barbara and Her Critics
  16. 11. The Parson’s Parable
  17. 12. The Rime of the Ancient Mariner
  18. 13. The Beginning
  19. 14. Wingfold
  20. 15. Far From Home
  21. 16. A Sister
  22. 17. Barbara and Lady Ann
  23. 18. Alice and Barbara
  24. 19. Barbara Thinks
  25. 20. Wingfold and Barbara
  26. 21. The Shoeing of Miss Brown
  27. 22. Vixen
  28. 23. Barbara’s Duty
  29. 24. The Parson’s Counsel
  30. 25. Lady Ann
  31. 26. Dismissal
  32. 27. The Wylders
  33. 28. London
  34. 29. Nature
  35. 30. A Drunken Disclosure
  36. 31. To Be Redeemed, One Must Redeem
  37. 32. A Door Opened in Heaven
  38. 33. Doors Opened on Earth
  39. 34. Death the Deliverer
  40. 35. The Cave in the Fire
  41. 36. Duck Fists
  42. 37. Baronet and Blacksmith
  43. 38. Revelation
  44. 39. The Bookbinder’s Heritage
  45. 40. Stepmother
  46. 41. Flight
  47. 42. Gone
  48. 43. Uncle-Father and Aunt-Mother
  49. 44. A Meeting
  50. 45. Wylder Hall
  51. 46. Miss Brown
  52. 47. Wingfold and Barbara
  53. 48. The Will
  54. 49. The Heir
  55. 50. Wingfold and Arthur Manson
  56. 51. Richard and His Family
  57. 52. Heart-to-Heart
  58. 53. The Quarrel
  59. 54. Baronet and Blacksmith
  60. 55. The Funeral
  61. 56. The Packet
  62. 57. Barbara’s Dream
  63. ENDNOTES

“One morning, after what seemed like a long night’s dreamless sleep, I awoke. But it was much too early to get up. So I lay thinking—or more truly, I hope, being thought into, as Mr. Wingfold says. Many of the most beautiful things I had read, scenes of our Lord’s life on earth, and thoughts of the Father, came and went. I had no desire to sleep again, or any feeling of drowsiness, but in the midst of fully conscious thought, I found myself in some other place. I knew only that there was firm ground under my feet and a soft white radiance of light about me. Afterward I remembered branches of trees spreading high overhead, through which I saw the sky. But at the time I seemed not to take notice of what was around me. I was leaning against a form tall and grand, clothed from the shoulders to the ground in a white robe, full, and soft, and fine. It lay in thickly gathered folds, touched to whiteness in the radiant light, and the arms encircled without at first touching me.

“With sweet contentment my eyes went in and out of those radiant lines, feeling, though they were parts of his dress, that they were yet of himself. For I knew the form to be that of the heavenly Father, but I felt no trembling fear, no sense of painful awe—only a deep, deep worshipping, an unutterable love and confidence. ‘O Father!’ I said, not aloud, but low into the folds of his garment. Scarcely had I breathed the words when ‘My child!’ came whispered back, and I knew his head was bent toward me, and I felt his arms close round my shoulders. The folds of his garment wrapped around me and, with a soft sweep, fell behind me to the ground. Delight held me still for a while, and then I looked up to see his face, but I could not see past his chest. His shoulders rose far above my upreaching hands, for my head did not come much above his waist.

“And now came the most wonderful part of my dream. As I thus rested against him, near his heart, I seemed to see into it. And I was filled with a loving wonder, and an utterly blessed feeling of home, to the very core. I was at home—with my Father! I looked, it seemed, into a fathomless space, and yet a warm light as from a hearth-fire shone and played in ruddy glow, as upon cottage walls. I saw, gathered there, all human hearts. I saw them—yet I saw no forms. They were there—and yet they would be there. To my waking mind the words sound like nonsense, but in my dream the thing did not perplex me at all. With light beyond that of faith, for it was of absolute certainty, I saw them.