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Chapters (63)
  1. Title Page
  2. Copyright Page
  3. CONTENTS
  4. Foreword to The Cullen Collection
  5. Introduction to There and Back
  6. 1. Bookbinder and Son
  7. 2. Brother and Sister
  8. 3. Simon Armour
  9. 4. A Lost Shoe
  10. 5. The Library
  11. 6. Alice
  12. 7. Mortgrange
  13. 8. Barbara Wylder
  14. 9. Mrs. Wylder
  15. 10. Barbara and Her Critics
  16. 11. The Parson’s Parable
  17. 12. The Rime of the Ancient Mariner
  18. 13. The Beginning
  19. 14. Wingfold
  20. 15. Far From Home
  21. 16. A Sister
  22. 17. Barbara and Lady Ann
  23. 18. Alice and Barbara
  24. 19. Barbara Thinks
  25. 20. Wingfold and Barbara
  26. 21. The Shoeing of Miss Brown
  27. 22. Vixen
  28. 23. Barbara’s Duty
  29. 24. The Parson’s Counsel
  30. 25. Lady Ann
  31. 26. Dismissal
  32. 27. The Wylders
  33. 28. London
  34. 29. Nature
  35. 30. A Drunken Disclosure
  36. 31. To Be Redeemed, One Must Redeem
  37. 32. A Door Opened in Heaven
  38. 33. Doors Opened on Earth
  39. 34. Death the Deliverer
  40. 35. The Cave in the Fire
  41. 36. Duck Fists
  42. 37. Baronet and Blacksmith
  43. 38. Revelation
  44. 39. The Bookbinder’s Heritage
  45. 40. Stepmother
  46. 41. Flight
  47. 42. Gone
  48. 43. Uncle-Father and Aunt-Mother
  49. 44. A Meeting
  50. 45. Wylder Hall
  51. 46. Miss Brown
  52. 47. Wingfold and Barbara
  53. 48. The Will
  54. 49. The Heir
  55. 50. Wingfold and Arthur Manson
  56. 51. Richard and His Family
  57. 52. Heart-to-Heart
  58. 53. The Quarrel
  59. 54. Baronet and Blacksmith
  60. 55. The Funeral
  61. 56. The Packet
  62. 57. Barbara’s Dream
  63. ENDNOTES

She went to her mother’s room, but said nothing of what had passed. She would not heat those ovens of wrath, the bosoms of her parents.

The next morning she ran to saddle Miss Brown. To her astonishment her friend was not in her box, nor in any stall in the stable, neither was anyone around to ask what had become of her. For the first time in her life, everybody had got out of Barbara’s way. In the harness-room, however, she came upon one of the stable-boys. He was in tears. When he saw her, he turned to run, looking as if he had had a piece of Miss Brown for breakfast, but she stopped him.

“Where is Miss Brown?” she said.

“Don’t know, miss.”

“Who knows then?”

“Perhaps master, miss.”

“What are you crying for?”

“Don’t know, miss.”

“That’s not true. Boys don’t cry without knowing why!”

“Well, miss, I ain’t sure what I’m crying for.”

“Speak out, man! Don’t be foolish.”

“Master give me a terrible cut, miss.”

“Did you deserve it?”

“Don’t know, miss.”

“You don’t seem to know anything this morning!”

“No, miss.”

“What did your master give you the cut for?”

“‘Cause I was crying.”

Here he burst into a restrained howl.

“What were you crying for?”

“Because Miss Brown was gone.”

“And you cried without knowing where she was gone?” said Barbara, turning almost sick with apprehension.

“Yes, miss,” affirmed the miserable boy.

“Is she dead?”

“No, miss, she ain’t dead. She’s sold!”

The words were not yet out of his mouth when he turned and bolted.

“That’s my gentleman-papa!” said Barbara to herself. Had she been any girl but Barbara, she would have cried like the boy. But not once from that moment did she allude to Miss Brown in the hearing of father or servant.

One day her mother asked her why she never rode anymore, and she told her. The wrath of her mother was like a tigress. She sprang to her feet and bounded to the door. But when she reached it, Barbara was between her and the handle.

“Mother! Mother dear!” she pleaded.

The mother took her by the shoulders, thinking she would fling her across the room. But she was not so strong as she had been, and found the little one hard as nails—she could not move her an inch.

“Get out of my way!” she cried. “I will kill him.”

“Mama, listen! It happened a month ago! I said nothing—for love’s sake!”

“Love! Dare you tell me you love that wretch of a father of yours! I will kill you if you say you love him!”

Barbara threw her arms round her mother’s neck.

“Listen, mama,” she said, “I do love him a little, but it wasn’t for love of him I held my tongue.”