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Chapters (63)
  1. Title Page
  2. Copyright Page
  3. CONTENTS
  4. Foreword to The Cullen Collection
  5. Introduction to There and Back
  6. 1. Bookbinder and Son
  7. 2. Brother and Sister
  8. 3. Simon Armour
  9. 4. A Lost Shoe
  10. 5. The Library
  11. 6. Alice
  12. 7. Mortgrange
  13. 8. Barbara Wylder
  14. 9. Mrs. Wylder
  15. 10. Barbara and Her Critics
  16. 11. The Parson’s Parable
  17. 12. The Rime of the Ancient Mariner
  18. 13. The Beginning
  19. 14. Wingfold
  20. 15. Far From Home
  21. 16. A Sister
  22. 17. Barbara and Lady Ann
  23. 18. Alice and Barbara
  24. 19. Barbara Thinks
  25. 20. Wingfold and Barbara
  26. 21. The Shoeing of Miss Brown
  27. 22. Vixen
  28. 23. Barbara’s Duty
  29. 24. The Parson’s Counsel
  30. 25. Lady Ann
  31. 26. Dismissal
  32. 27. The Wylders
  33. 28. London
  34. 29. Nature
  35. 30. A Drunken Disclosure
  36. 31. To Be Redeemed, One Must Redeem
  37. 32. A Door Opened in Heaven
  38. 33. Doors Opened on Earth
  39. 34. Death the Deliverer
  40. 35. The Cave in the Fire
  41. 36. Duck Fists
  42. 37. Baronet and Blacksmith
  43. 38. Revelation
  44. 39. The Bookbinder’s Heritage
  45. 40. Stepmother
  46. 41. Flight
  47. 42. Gone
  48. 43. Uncle-Father and Aunt-Mother
  49. 44. A Meeting
  50. 45. Wylder Hall
  51. 46. Miss Brown
  52. 47. Wingfold and Barbara
  53. 48. The Will
  54. 49. The Heir
  55. 50. Wingfold and Arthur Manson
  56. 51. Richard and His Family
  57. 52. Heart-to-Heart
  58. 53. The Quarrel
  59. 54. Baronet and Blacksmith
  60. 55. The Funeral
  61. 56. The Packet
  62. 57. Barbara’s Dream
  63. ENDNOTES

Mrs. Wylder had not got so far yet, but she had sought refuge in love, and what is the love of child, or mother, or dog, but the love of God shining through another being—which is another being just because he shines through it? The one important result of her illness, finding refuge in the love of her daughter, brought her to love Barbara. The next point in her eternal growth would be to love the God who made the child she loved, and whose love shone upon her through the child.

By nature Mrs. Wylder was a strong woman whom passion made weak It sucked at her will till first it hardened it to a more selfish determination, then pulped it to a helpless obstinacy. The persistence that goes with inclination has its force only from the weakness of pride and the mean worship of self. It is the opposite of that free will which is the reflex of the divine will, and the ministering servant-power to all freedom, which resists and subdues the self of inclination, and is obedient only to the self of duty. Where the temple of God has no windows, earthquakes must sometimes come to tear off the roof that sunlight may enter.

Her earthquake had come, and Barbara’s mother lay broken so that the spirit of her daughter might enter the soul of her mother—and with it the Spirit of him who, in the heart of her daughter, made her who she was.

Her illness had lasted a month, when one day her husband, at Barbara’s request, came to see her. She feebly put out her hand, and for a moment the divine child in the man opened its heavenly eyes. He took the offered hand kindly, faltering a gentle-sounding commonplace or two, and left her happier, with a strange little bird fluttering in his own heart. There are eggs of all the heavenly birds in our bosoms, and the history of man is the incubation and hatching of these eggs.

Mrs. Wylder began to recover, but the recovery was a long one. As soon as she thought her well enough, Barbara told her that Mr. Wingfold had been to ask about her almost every day and asked whether she would not like to see him. Her mother was in a quiet condition, noncombative, involving no real betterment, only a weakening of the will to fight. But such a condition gives opportunity for the good and loving to be felt.