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Chapters (63)
  1. Title Page
  2. Copyright Page
  3. CONTENTS
  4. Foreword to The Cullen Collection
  5. Introduction to There and Back
  6. 1. Bookbinder and Son
  7. 2. Brother and Sister
  8. 3. Simon Armour
  9. 4. A Lost Shoe
  10. 5. The Library
  11. 6. Alice
  12. 7. Mortgrange
  13. 8. Barbara Wylder
  14. 9. Mrs. Wylder
  15. 10. Barbara and Her Critics
  16. 11. The Parson’s Parable
  17. 12. The Rime of the Ancient Mariner
  18. 13. The Beginning
  19. 14. Wingfold
  20. 15. Far From Home
  21. 16. A Sister
  22. 17. Barbara and Lady Ann
  23. 18. Alice and Barbara
  24. 19. Barbara Thinks
  25. 20. Wingfold and Barbara
  26. 21. The Shoeing of Miss Brown
  27. 22. Vixen
  28. 23. Barbara’s Duty
  29. 24. The Parson’s Counsel
  30. 25. Lady Ann
  31. 26. Dismissal
  32. 27. The Wylders
  33. 28. London
  34. 29. Nature
  35. 30. A Drunken Disclosure
  36. 31. To Be Redeemed, One Must Redeem
  37. 32. A Door Opened in Heaven
  38. 33. Doors Opened on Earth
  39. 34. Death the Deliverer
  40. 35. The Cave in the Fire
  41. 36. Duck Fists
  42. 37. Baronet and Blacksmith
  43. 38. Revelation
  44. 39. The Bookbinder’s Heritage
  45. 40. Stepmother
  46. 41. Flight
  47. 42. Gone
  48. 43. Uncle-Father and Aunt-Mother
  49. 44. A Meeting
  50. 45. Wylder Hall
  51. 46. Miss Brown
  52. 47. Wingfold and Barbara
  53. 48. The Will
  54. 49. The Heir
  55. 50. Wingfold and Arthur Manson
  56. 51. Richard and His Family
  57. 52. Heart-to-Heart
  58. 53. The Quarrel
  59. 54. Baronet and Blacksmith
  60. 55. The Funeral
  61. 56. The Packet
  62. 57. Barbara’s Dream
  63. ENDNOTES

“God is God to us not that we may say he is, but that we may know him. And when we know him, then we are with him, at home, at the heart of the universe, the heirs of all things. All this is foolishness, I know, to the dull soul that cares only for the things that can be proved. The unprovable mystery out of which come the things provable, has for them no interest, they say, because it is unprovable—they take for granted that therefore it is unknowable. Would they be content it should be unknowable if things were all as they should be within them? When the eyes of those who have made themselves at home in the world of the senses and care for no other are opened, I imagine them saying—‘Yes, He was after all, but none the less were you fools to believe in him, for you had no proof!’ Then I seem to hear the children laugh and say, ‘We had himself, and did not want it.’

“That the unprovable is necessarily the unknowable, a thousand beliefs deny. ‘You cannot prove to me that you have a father!’ says the blind sage, reasoning with the little child. ‘Why should I prove it?’ answers the child. ‘I am sitting on his knee! If I could prove it, that would not make you see him, that would not make you happy like me! You do not care about my father, or you would not stand there disputing. You would feel about until you found him!’ If a thing be true in itself, it is not capable of proof, and that man is in the higher condition who is able to believe it.

“In proportion as a man is a fool he is unable to believe what in itself is true. If intellect be the highest power, then the men of proof are the wisest. If there be something deeper than intellect, causing and including it, if there be a creative power of which our intellect is but a faint reflex, then the child of that power, the one who acknowledges and loves and obeys that power, will be the one to understand it. If a man say, ‘I cannot believe, I was not made to believe what I could not prove,’ I reply, Do you really say, ‘It is not true,’ because you have no proof? Ask yourself whether you do not turn from the idea because you prefer it should not be true.