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Chapters (118)
  1. About the Author
  2. Dedication
  3. Prologue
  4. Prologue
  5. Chapter 1
  6. 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. 2
  9. Chapter 3
  10. 3
  11. Chapter 4
  12. 4
  13. Chapter 5
  14. 5
  15. Chapter 6
  16. 6
  17. Chapter 7
  18. 7
  19. Chapter 8
  20. 8
  21. Chapter 9
  22. 9
  23. Chapter 10
  24. 10
  25. Chapter 11
  26. 11
  27. Chapter 12
  28. 12
  29. Chapter 13
  30. 13
  31. Chapter 14
  32. 14
  33. Chapter 15
  34. 15
  35. Chapter 16
  36. 16
  37. Chapter 17
  38. 17
  39. Chapter 18
  40. 18
  41. Chapter 19
  42. 19
  43. Chapter 20
  44. 20
  45. Chapter 21
  46. 21
  47. Chapter 22
  48. 22
  49. Chapter 23
  50. 23
  51. Chapter 24
  52. 24
  53. Chapter 25
  54. 25
  55. Chapter 26
  56. 26
  57. Chapter 27
  58. 27
  59. Chapter 28
  60. 28
  61. Chapter 29
  62. 29
  63. Chapter 30
  64. 30
  65. Chapter 31
  66. 31
  67. Chapter 32
  68. 32
  69. Chapter 33
  70. 33
  71. Chapter 34
  72. 34
  73. Chapter 35
  74. 35
  75. Chapter 36
  76. 36
  77. Chapter 37
  78. 37
  79. Chapter 38
  80. 38
  81. Chapter 39
  82. 39
  83. Chapter 40
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  85. Chapter 41
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  87. Chapter 42
  88. 42
  89. Chapter 43
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  91. Chapter 44
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  93. Chapter 45
  94. 45
  95. Chapter 46
  96. 46
  97. Chapter 47
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  99. Chapter 48
  100. 48
  101. Chapter 49
  102. 49
  103. Chapter 50
  104. 50
  105. Chapter 51
  106. 51
  107. Chapter 52
  108. 52
  109. Chapter 53
  110. 53
  111. Epilogue
  112. Epilogue
  113. Acknowledgements
  114. Read more
  115. Read more
  116. BRISTOL DAILY NEWS
  117. October 2018
  118. THE BEGINNING

‘You. The way you were back then. You were obsessed with Flora, Margot and Heather. You couldn’t keep away. They might as well have adopted you.’

I shift in my seat, uncomfortable. Was it that obvious? My need for them then? I’d thought I’d hidden a lot from them, like how often I was on my own, how occasionally Mum wouldn’t even come home at all, preferring to stay over at her new boyfriend’s house, or have a drink with a friend, leaving me alone for a few days. But then, at other times, she’d want to spend all Sunday with me, curled up on the sofa watching old black-and-white films on TV and eating chocolate. Those were some of my favourite times, just the two of us. ‘It’s not like that. Not now.’ I don’t need anyone now, I add silently. I rely on myself.

Leo takes a sip of his tea, regarding me over the rim of his cup. I stir my frothy latte and try to avoid eye contact. This isn’t playing out as I’d hoped.

I take a deep breath and start again. ‘Do you think Heather did it? The shootings, I mean. There’s another set of fingerprints on the gun. It could have been someone else.’

‘Like who?’

‘I don’t know.’

Leo puts his cup down. ‘Listen, Jess. You seem like a nice woman. But our family, we have our demons. If I were you I’d keep out of it.’

‘Every family has their demons.’

‘Not like ours.’

I decide to change the subject. ‘Do you ever go back to Tilby?’

He shakes his mop of shaggy hair. ‘I haven’t been back in years. Couldn’t wait to leave the place. I moved to Bristol. Somewhere more anonymous. Started over.’

‘What do you do now? For work, I mean?’

His body relaxes and he’s clearly relieved to be talking about something else. ‘I work for a car dealership. It suits me. I miss the outdoors but I couldn’t ever go back to Tilby.’ His expression darkens again and he says quietly, ‘My life was ruined after Flora went missing. The rumours destroyed me. Do you …’ he gulps and glances down at the floral oilcloth on the table ‘… do you know what it’s like to be looked upon as a monster? A pervert? I know I’m not a saint but Flora … She was my niece, for fuck’s sake.’ His face flushes with anger.

‘I can’t imagine.’

‘I hate the fucking place now.’

‘I’m sorry for bringing it all up again.’