Contents ( 24)
- The Secret Goldfish
- Copyright
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- Contents
- LIGHTNING MAN
- SAULT STE. MARIE
- IT COUNTS AS SEEING
- BLOWN FROM THE BRIDGE
- A VISIT FROM JESUS
- PETROUCHKA [WITH OMISSIONS]
- ELYRIA MAN
- THE PROJECT
- HUNGER
- COUNTERPARTS
- DUSTMAN APPEARANCES TO DATE
- CARNIE
- THE NEST
- MICHIGAN DEATH TRIP
- THE SECRET GOLDFISH
- About the Author
- Praise
- By the Same Author
- About the Publisher
The marriage had fallen apart abruptly. Her husband—who worked in the city as a corporate banker and left the house each morning at dawn with the Times, still wrapped in its bright-blue delivery bag, tucked beneath his arm—had betrayed his vows. One evening he’d arrived home from work with what seemed to be a new face: his teeth were abnormally white. He’d had them bleached in the city. (In retrospect, she saw that his bright teeth were the first hint of his infidelity.) He had found a dentist on Park Avenue. Soon he was coming home late on some nights and not at all on others under the vague pretense of work obligations. In Japan, he explained, people sleep overnight in town as a sign of their dedication to business; they rent cubicles just wide enough for a body, like coffins, he said, and for days when he did not return she thought of those small compartments and she chose to believe him. (Of course I know about the Japanese, she had said, emphatically.) Then one night she found him in the bathroom with a bar of soap, rubbing it gently against his wedding ring—It’s too tight, he said. I’m just trying to loosen it. When others were perplexed by the fact that she had not deduced his infidelity, picked up on the clues, during those fall months, she felt compelled (though she never did) to describe the marriage in all of its long complexity—fifteen years—starting with the honeymoon in Spain: the parador in Chincón, outside Madrid, that had once been a monastery, standing naked with him at the balcony door in the dusky night air listening to the sounds of the village and the splash of the pool. She had given up her career for the relationship, for the family. She had given up plenty in order to stay home for Teddy and Annie’s formative years, to make sure those brain synapses formed correctly, to be assured that the right connections were fused. (Because studies had made it clear that a kid’s success depended on the first few years. It was important to develop the fine motor skills, to have the appropriate hand play, not to mention critical reasoning skills, before the age of four!) So, yes, she guessed the whole decision to give herself over to the domestic job had been an act of free will, but now it felt as though the act itself had been carried out in the conditions of betrayal that would eventually unfold before her.