In the serene morning light of the kitchen he started to relax for the first time in weeks, losing the disturbed, fugitive feeling he’d found shadowing him recently. The smell of apples in the orchard spilled through the open door—bringing the comfort of the thirty-one autumns he’d enjoyed before this one. He’d run from everything and everyone, but it felt good that he was coming home. He rinsed the bloodred wine stain from the glass left from last night and threw what was left of the French loaf into the oven to encourage it for a few minutes. He decided to check the bike, as he barely remembered how he’d parked it: all that had kept him going during those last grinding miles at speed from Lyon was the thought of refuge, breaking into the pungent Meaux brie he’d packed in his rucksack, with a baguette, a glass of his father’s St.-Emilion, and bed.

Outside, everything was disarmingly peaceful. There was a late flush of wisteria scrambling over the front of the cottage. Apart from superficial signs of neglect betrayed by an uncut lawn and unswept path, the house didn’t reveal the family pain that had shaped its solitude for many months. Following the sudden and terrible loss of Will’s mother from cancer late in January, no one had appeared to want to visit it. Easily accessible on any three-day weekend from their home in Hampshire, this had been her space, her escape, her joy to paint and garden in; and her ghost haunted every corner even now, in broad morning light. His father was grieving quietly and saying little, working as hard as ever to avoid thinking too much; and Alex seemed somehow to cope with all events without letting others in on the depth of his feelings. But Will was proudly his mother’s son, emotional in his response to life and passionate in his relationships. And here, in her enchanted space, he missed her.