Chapters (54)
- Title Page
- Copyright Notice
- Dedication
- Preface
- Epigraph
- Entry 1
- Entry 2
- Entry 3
- Entry 4
- Entry 5
- Entry 6
- Entry 7
- Entry 8
- Entry 9
- Entry 10
- Entry 11
- Entry 12
- Entry 13
- Entry 14
- Entry 15
- Entry 16
- Entry 17
- Entry 18
- Entry 19
- Entry 20
- Entry 21
- Entry 22
- Entry 23
- Entry 24
- Entry 25
- Entry 26
- Entry 27
- Entry 28
- Entry 29
- Entry 30
- Entry 31
- Entry 32
- Entry 33
- Entry 34
- Entry 35
- Entry 36
- Entry 37
- Entry 38
- Entry 39
- Entry 40
- Entry 41
- Entry 42
- Entry 43
- Entry 44
- Entry 45
- Epilogue
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
- Newsletter Sign-up
At first he probably thought it was a clearing of his ears or the drink playing tricks on him. Then it came again, riding the breeze from the fields, a gentle popping like feather pillows ripping open.
A moment later he tasted a bitter dust coating his mouth. He spit a gob over the railing, reached through his screen door, grabbed his shotgun, and lumbered down the steps toward the fields. From an upstairs window, his son watched the powerful beam of a flashlight zigzag across the ground, carving up the darkness.
The bitter taste grew stronger in McCafferty’s mouth, as if a waft of pollen had thickened the air. He reached the brink of his fallow field, and what he saw brought him up short, his mouth gaping, his boots sinking in the soft mud.
A dried-out pod imploded, releasing a puff of tiny particles into the air. And then the seven-foot stalk beneath it collapsed, disintegrating into a heap of dust above the soil. He watched as the neighboring pod burst, its stalk crumbling into nothingness. And then the next. And the next. It was like a haunted-house trick—a ghost vanishing, leaving only a sheet fluttering to the ground. The weeds collapsed, row after row, sinking down into the earth they’d mysteriously appeared from.
At last the pollen grew too strong, and he coughed into a fist and headed back to his bottle, hoping the bourbon would clear his throat.
Early the next morning, McCafferty awoke and threw off the sheets. His belly was distended. Not ribs-and-coleslaw-at-a-Fourth-of-July-party swollen, but bulging like a pregnant woman five months in. His wife stirred at his side, pulling the pillow over her head. Ignoring the cramps, he trudged to the closet and dressed as he did every morning. The overalls stretched across his bulging gut, but he managed to wiggle them up and snap the straps into place. He had work to do, and the hired hands weren’t gonna pay themselves.
As the sun climbed the sky, the pain in his stomach worsened. He sat on the motionless tractor, mopping his forehead. He could still taste that bitter pollen, feel it in the lining of his gut, even sense it creeping up the back of his throat into his head.
He knocked off early, a luxury he had not indulged in since his wedding day, and dragged himself upstairs and into a cold shower. His bloated stomach pushed out so far that his arms could barely encircle it. Streaks fissured the skin on his sides just like the stretch marks that had appeared at Lucille’s hips during her pregnancies. The cramping came constantly now, throbbing knots of pain.
The water beat at him, and he felt himself grow foggy. He leaned against the wall of the shower stall, his vision smearing the tiles, and he sensed that pollen in his skull, burrowing into his brain.
He remembered nothing else.
He did not remember stepping from the shower.