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Chapters (47)
  1. Cover Page
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright Page
  4. Table of Contents
  5. prologue
  6. Howard: Christmas, 1985
  7. Joanna: Christmas, 1985
  8. part one: Howard
  9. one: Summer, 1965
  10. two: Spring, 1966
  11. three: Autumn, 1968
  12. four: April, 1969
  13. five: Summer, 1974
  14. six: 1976
  15. seven: Summer, 1979
  16. eight: January, 1982
  17. part two: Joanna
  18. one: Summer, 1984
  19. two: Spring, 1985
  20. three: Spring, 1985
  21. four: August, 1985
  22. five: August, 1985
  23. six: August, 1985
  24. seven: September, 1985
  25. eight: September, 1985
  26. part three
  27. one: Howard, September, 1985
  28. two: Joanna, October, 1985
  29. three:Howard, November, 1985
  30. four: Joanna, November, 1985
  31. five: Howard, November, 1985
  32. six: Joanna, November, 1985
  33. seven: Howard, November, 1985
  34. eight: Joanna, November, 1985
  35. nine: Howard, November, 1985
  36. ten: Joanna, November, 1985
  37. eleven: Howard, December, 1985
  38. twelve: Joanna, December, 1985
  39. thirteen: Howard, December, 1985
  40. fourteen: Joanna, December, 1985
  41. fifteen: Howard, December, 1985
  42. sixteen: Joanna, December, 1985
  43. seventeen: Howard, December, 1985
  44. eighteen: Joanna, December, 1985, epilogue
  45. Joanna: Christmas, 1985
  46. Howard: January, 1986
  47. acknowledgements

Crossing the bridge, Dad tries to take my hand. I let him hold it lightly for a minute, but when we reach the other side I slip my fingers away.

‘Here we are,’ he announces.

He points at a huge dirty building with a tower and windows like you get in churches. We step through the doorway into a dark, silent passageway.

‘Is this the University?’ I whisper.

‘This is it,’ says Dad. ‘This is the University.’

We walk through the passageway and out into a big garden at the back. Willow trees swish along the grass in the breeze. All round us, people are shielding their eyes and looking up. A lot of them are clutching guidebooks.

‘Where are the students?’ I ask.

‘Term hasn’t started yet.’

‘Lazy buggers.’

Dad smiles and we stand for a minute, looking up, like everyone else, at the blank squares of glass that make up the college windows. I imagine the students sitting in there, reading, their un-hairsprayed heads bent over their desks.

I look around at the other people on the lawn. Apart from the people with guidebooks, every girl seems to be wearing a longer skirt than me. And their hair isn’t flicked up or brushed out. It just hangs.

I wait for Dad to say something.

‘Shall we sit over there?’ He points at a tree whose branches are so big and low they look like giant’s hands.

‘All this time living here, and we never came.’ Dad lays down beneath the branches. ‘Why didn’t we come here before?’

I concentrate on sitting on the grass without showing Dad too much thigh.

After a while he sits up. ‘I’m not making a very good job of this, am I?’

I pick a handful of grass and throw it over his knee.

‘Do you like it here, Joanna?’

I consider the willow trees with their long fingers, the girls with their long skirts, the blank, black windows. I don’t know the answer.

‘You could come here,’ says Dad, leaning close to me, ‘if you work hard.’

I throw some more grass over his legs.

‘Mind the suit,’ he says, brushing it off. He scratches at his brillo-pad hair. ‘I mean it.’ His eyes are big and red. ‘I know you’ve got the brains, even if you don’t always use them. You can come here. It’s possible.’

I pick up a shard of old bark, dig it under my nail to clean out the dirt.

‘No one told me things are possible. I mean, not everything you think is impossible is impossible.’

‘What are you on about?’

He sighs. ‘I don’t know.’

‘Shall we go then?’ I stand up.

A bell begins to clang.

‘Wait. Sit down.’

He grabs my hand and pulls me into his lap. ‘My girl,’ he whispers, crushing me against him and hiding his face in my hair.