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Chapters (47)
  1. Cover Page
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright Page
  4. Table of Contents
  5. prologue
  6. Howard: Christmas, 1985
  7. Joanna: Christmas, 1985
  8. part one: Howard
  9. one: Summer, 1965
  10. two: Spring, 1966
  11. three: Autumn, 1968
  12. four: April, 1969
  13. five: Summer, 1974
  14. six: 1976
  15. seven: Summer, 1979
  16. eight: January, 1982
  17. part two: Joanna
  18. one: Summer, 1984
  19. two: Spring, 1985
  20. three: Spring, 1985
  21. four: August, 1985
  22. five: August, 1985
  23. six: August, 1985
  24. seven: September, 1985
  25. eight: September, 1985
  26. part three
  27. one: Howard, September, 1985
  28. two: Joanna, October, 1985
  29. three:Howard, November, 1985
  30. four: Joanna, November, 1985
  31. five: Howard, November, 1985
  32. six: Joanna, November, 1985
  33. seven: Howard, November, 1985
  34. eight: Joanna, November, 1985
  35. nine: Howard, November, 1985
  36. ten: Joanna, November, 1985
  37. eleven: Howard, December, 1985
  38. twelve: Joanna, December, 1985
  39. thirteen: Howard, December, 1985
  40. fourteen: Joanna, December, 1985
  41. fifteen: Howard, December, 1985
  42. sixteen: Joanna, December, 1985
  43. seventeen: Howard, December, 1985
  44. eighteen: Joanna, December, 1985, epilogue
  45. Joanna: Christmas, 1985
  46. Howard: January, 1986
  47. acknowledgements

It’s art and we’re doing portraits. We have to turn round and draw whoever’s next to us. I’m glad I’m sitting next to Rob. Rob’s good at art, everyone says so. He has a set of professional pencils: soft ones for shading, hard ones for fine lines. Each one is sharpened to an evil little point, and none of the ends are chewed. On the sides there’s gold lettering: HB, B, 2B.

‘Posh pencils,’ I say. ‘New?’

‘Not really.’

‘Expensive.’

Rob selects a pencil from the tin and examines it. ‘They were a present.’ He digs the point into his finger, like he’s testing it. ‘From my dad.’

‘What for?’

He looks to the ceiling. ‘I don’t know.’

‘Your dad buys you presents for nothing?’

He reaches for his sketchbook. ‘I should be drawing you.’

It’s always hot in the art room. There’s plants and skylights and sweaty boys and it’s a bit like a greenhouse. I take my jumper off and arrange my silk-touch blouse over my tits, glad that Luke McNeill is on the other side of the room, having his sketchbook marked by the teacher.

Rob rolls up his shirt sleeves. I watch his knobbly wrists move as he starts to sketch me in.

‘Wish my dad would buy me stuff,’ I say.

Rob doesn’t respond. He’s frowning at his page. Then he frowns straight at me and I wonder if I should look away. But his eyes go back to the paper before I can blink.

‘You must get some presents,’ he says eventually.

I notice the way his gold chain snakes around the base of his long neck.

‘My mum’s boyfriend tries to buy me things.’ I give my hair a shake.

‘Keep still.’

‘He’d probably get me anything I wanted, actually.’

‘Like what?’

‘Like anything.’ I try to think of something. Simon still hasn’t given me my reward for our tutorials. ‘He gave me the money for my coat.’

Rob’s eyes settle on mine. ‘That’s different.’

‘How?’

‘Just giving you money. It’s different.’

‘I got the coat.’

Rob gives a little smile, like he’s sorry for me. ‘But he wouldn’t know what to get you unless you told him, would he?’

‘Maybe.’ I lick my lips, lean forward. ‘But did you really want those posh pencils?’

‘Not exactly…’

‘So your dad might as well have given you the cash.’

He shrugs. ‘He wouldn’t do that.’

‘They never know what you want,’ I say. ‘Money’s better.’

Rob drops his pencil back in the tin and picks up another. Again, he digs the end into the tip of his finger and stares at it. I can see the skin there going white. ‘They never ask what you want,’ he says in a quiet voice.

‘Aren’t you drawing me?’ Luke sits down with a loud huff.

‘He’s doing me,’ I say.