But I try not to think about that one. Because when I do, I know what comes next: even though Thomas thought my mother had a photograph of him, even though I posed a mild risk, he didn’t just let me go, didn’t just pick another victim instead. And I am left asking: why couldn’t he let me go?

Why did it have to be me?

Which then leads to thoughts of Sabine, and how if she hadn’t seen him and recognised him, she’d be alive now. And then: guilt. Because Sabine saved me in a way. After her death, I was put on ice until things calmed down.

That is, of course, until one night, I arrived on his doorstep…

Those sorts of thoughts will fuck you up at 4 am, it’s almost impossible to make them stop, and when I manage it’s only to think other equally shit things like, What would have happened if Camilla hadn’t called me that night I went to Thomas’s house for help? The night I showed him that picture from Sabine’s video with her hand in frame? What if he hadn’t heard me tell Camilla, ‘I’m just at Thomas’s house’? Would he have killed me then?

Mum and Neville break up for good and she meets a new Neville – this one is called Marc. Camilla realises the guy on the fourteenth floor is not her soulmate but she hasn’t had her identity stolen yet either, so maybe both of us were wrong. She gets the job at Vogue and is constantly bringing me tops a size too small from sample sales.

Agnès Bisset goes to trial. Her messages are dissected as part of the investigation. It turns out she would have disposed of Sabine herself if Thomas hadn’t done it for her.

The Klimt isn’t recovered, she claims it was a fake but that doesn’t matter because I was right about that not being her first foray into white collar crime. A vast number of artefacts from questionable origins are seized from Geneva Freeport. It turns out she was using emerging art, selling pieces she bought cheap for seriously inflated prices, to move said artefacts. Not once do I read the name Philip Crawford-White in the papers, of course.

DNA extracted from Thomas is added to the UK National DNA Database. There’s a positive match with the DNA taken from a 2015 UK murder scene.