‘I’ve noticed how that seems to happen.’ ‘Killer’ was the second song I’d inspired Johnnie to write. The first, ‘Lady’, was his very first hit as a solo artist and referenced my older woman allure and the cruel trampling of his delicate heart. It seemed that as much as he complained about our relationship, it had at least proved lucrative for him.

‘It’s just, it’s . . .’ He sighed. ‘You’re difficult to get over, Lex.’ He pulled his sunglasses off and for the first time properly looked at me.

‘Don’t be so dramatic, Johnnie.’

‘I mean it. You steamroll into my life, bowl me over with your fun and funniness. And then you’re gone. And a life that I was perfectly happy in before feels empty. There’s no one stretching in my bed shouting at me to make some bloody toast. No one flinging me up against a wall the minute I walk through the doors. You realise you’re impossible, right? You get what you want and don’t care how. You’re incapable of thinking of anyone but yourself.’

I’d first met Johnnie nearly eight years ago when I was in my late twenties.

I thought back to how I was then.

My life before Will.

He wasn’t wrong. Not unlike my now-toddler daughter, I never really saw a world outside of what worked for me. What I wanted. What made me happy.

‘But even now, after all these sodding years, there are nights on tour when I put the hotel key card into the lock, watch it go green and open the door wishing I’d find you there waiting. Why the hell did you never give us a chance? I know it wasn’t the sex.’ He laughed and shook his head. ‘Jesus, it can’t have been the sex. What was it? What made you not want to stay?’

‘I just . . . I . . . I wasn’t there yet. I wasn’t ready. I was happy having no one. I didn’t think I needed anybody.’

‘But this guy, this guy you married. What makes him so special? I get that because of what you do you meet some pretty incredible people.’ He leaned towards me and lowered his voice. ‘Is he some super spy? Can he kill a man with one finger? A high-level scientist who’s found the cure for cancer?’

I didn’t want to say that Will was a lawyer whose biggest super skill was making a mean gin and tonic, but that I loved him and he made me happy. That together we had fun and that he had changed my life for the better.