Chapters (76)
- Title Page
- Dedication
- Downtown Portland
- Epigraph
- Prologue
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Epilogue
- Acknowledgments
- Also by Chelsea Cain
- Copyright
It was only twenty gallons, small for an aquarium, but things got heavy quickly when you figured ten pounds for every gallon of water. He gently washed the rectangular tank out with warm water from the tap. Detergents and soaps were pollutants to such an otherwise pristine environment. He poured a blue aquarium gravel mix from the bag into a small clean bucket he had waiting on the bottom of the sink, and ran the tap over the gravel until the water ran clear. He rolled the pebbles under his fingertips. The blue was the color of the ocean from a travel postcard. It was why he had chosen such a pretty backdrop to Scotch-tape behind the glass—an image of a Greek island, white stucco houses and red roofs, alabaster cliffsides descending into that blue, blue water. He lowered the under-gravel filter plate into place at the bottom of the tank, and then carefully poured the clean gravel into the tank, making a bright azure floor three-quarters of an inch deep.
He positioned the filters and heater, and then lowered the tank into the sink under the faucet. He put a small plate on the bottom of the tank directly under the faucet stream, to keep the gravel from getting unsettled. And he turned the tap back on.
It took some time to fill the tank three-quarters full.
But he didn’t allow himself to get distracted. Instead he arranged his plants and decorations. Small plants in the front, taller in the back. He’d chosen a nice castle for this one, and a diving helmet and an arched bridge. When the water reached the three-quarters mark, he added these in, careful to press them securely into the gravel. He stepped back and admired the marine landscape.
Then he filled the tank to the top.
He unfolded the top of a small cardboard box and lifted the creature inside by the scruff of its neck.
The hamster had tiny black eyes and a quivering pink nose. Her belly was white, her head and back and ears apricot. Her little pink hands were clenched in panicked fists at her chest.
He dropped her into the tank and sealed the cover into place.
Wet, she looked like an entirely different animal. Tiny and slick, those pink feet uncurled, paws churning at the water. Her whiskers glanced against the surface, ears flat back, eyelids fluttering.
She would hold on for a while. They all did.
When she finally gave in, he’d let her rest for some time at the bottom of the tank, apricot fur feathering dreamily against the blue gravel.
And then he’d take apart the tank, wash it all, and start again.
He heard the back door open, and the rain get loud.
“There you are,” he said.
The boy streaked by behind him. His wet hospital gown clung to his scrawny knees.
The hamster swam and swam.