Chapters (49)
- About the Book
- About the Author
- Title Page
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- Prologue
- October: #Killallpigs
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- November: DreAms of the deAd
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- December: Lost contActs
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Author’s Note
- Copyright
I nodded, and I could not tear my eyes from her as she went to the table and took out her box of pens and opened her drawing book. I walked over to her and watched her work for a bit. She was drawing Stan’s head, and she had captured him very well. The bulging beauty of the eyes, the extravagant ears flowing like the hair of a girl in an old-fashioned painting, the nose like a squashed prune, the feathered glory of his tail.
I touched her hand and her eyes met mine.
‘Scout,’ I said, ‘it’s just you and me now. But we’re all right, aren’t we?’
She looked at her drawing and then back at me.
‘Yes,’ she said. ‘We’re all right.’
I breathed again.
‘Scout?’
‘What?’
‘I’m very, very proud that you’re my daughter.’
She got up and gave me an awkward embrace, her arm around my waist as I kissed her on top of her head. Then she broke off and went off to her bedroom, Stan trailing behind her, his tail up like a periscope.
I turned to the TV as Ben King came out of Number Ten and began walking towards the camera. Siri Voss was beside him, hugging her papers, but as they reached the camera she stepped aside with a smile, waiting for him just out of shot.
Ben King smiled. Then he cocked his head at the camera, and looked into it the way he had so often looked at me – a penetrating, lopsided look, disarmed and disarming, as if he saw something in you the rest of the world had yet to see.
Something glinted for a moment but I couldn’t tell if the fragment of light was on the TV screen or just inside my head.
And then I realised that Ben King had a glass eye.
And I saw that what James Sutcliffe had claimed was true. Someone had lost an eye in that room twenty years ago – a small forfeit for a young girl’s life. But it wasn’t Hugo Buck.
How had I missed it?
You, I thought, as Ben King smiled for the cameras in Downing Street. You.
And I saw a vision of two boys at a breakfast table, twin brothers, arguing with a fury that neither of them had known before, identical in every way apart from their hearts, and one of the brothers threw a glass with full force at the other’s face. And I knew it wasn’t Ned who was in that basement room the night they stole Anya Bauer’s life.
It was his brother, Ben.
‘Daddy?’ Scout said.