Chapters (63)
- COVER PAGE
- PRAISE
- ABOUT THE AUTHOR
- DEDICATION
- CHAPTER 1
- CHAPTER 2
- CHAPTER 3
- CHAPTER 4
- CHAPTER 5
- CHAPTER 6
- CHAPTER 7
- CHAPTER 8
- CHAPTER 9
- CHAPTER 10
- CHAPTER 11
- CHAPTER 12
- CHAPTER 13
- CHAPTER 14
- CHAPTER 15
- CHAPTER 16
- CHAPTER 17
- CHAPTER 18
- CHAPTER 19
- CHAPTER 20
- CHAPTER 21
- CHAPTER 22
- CHAPTER 23
- CHAPTER 24
- CHAPTER 25
- CHAPTER 26
- CHAPTER 27
- CHAPTER 28
- CHAPTER 29
- CHAPTER 30
- CHAPTER 31
- CHAPTER 32
- CHAPTER 33
- CHAPTER 34
- CHAPTER 35
- CHAPTER 36
- CHAPTER 37
- CHAPTER 38
- CHAPTER 39
- CHAPTER 40
- CHAPTER 41
- CHAPTER 42
- CHAPTER 43
- CHAPTER 44
- CHAPTER 45
- CHAPTER 46
- CHAPTER 47
- CHAPTER 48
- CHAPTER 49
- CHAPTER 50
- CHAPTER 51
- CHAPTER 52
- CHAPTER 53
- CHAPTER 54
- CHAPTER 55
- CHAPTER 56
- CHAPTER 57
- CHAPTER 58
- ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
She felt sweaty, the sheets and her pyjamas were damp. She looked at the clock: six o’clock. Why was it you had such vivid dreams just before you woke up? It was something to do with REM sleep – her mum would know. She’d ask her, though she wouldn’t tell her she’d been dreaming of Pete. Dorothy might think she wasn’t coping well. She wondered if she was coping at all. Sometimes it felt like she kept putting on a brave face for Jamie when all she wanted to do was sob.
Fiona slipped into her flip-flops – thongs, Pete used to call them – and as she headed for the stairs she remembered she had been carrying the same flip-flops in the dream. The house was silent but the early morning light illuminated the wooden stairs as she slapped her way down. Even before she opened the kitchen door, she could smell it. She pushed open the door and shook her head. There at the back door stood her father, in his ancient silk dressing gown, pipe in hand. He was looking out towards the Green and the river beyond.
‘Dad, what are you doing? You promised.’
Struan spun round and grinned. ‘Cup of tea, Fi?’
‘You’re a big cheat, Dad. I’ve given up my cans of the fizzy stuff.’ Fiona muttered, flicking on the kettle.
‘My house, my rules.’ He continued to puff out wisps of smoke. ‘I thought if I did it now, there’s a good two hours till Jamie’s up so he won’t smell it.’
‘Bit extreme, but cunning idea, Dad.’
Struan pulled his matches from his pocket and had just begun to relight his pipe when he turned to look at his daughter.
She was pouring boiling water into two mugs, scowling.
Struan put his pipe on the window ledge outside and strolled into the kitchen. He tousled Fiona’s hair and sat down on the rickety chair. ‘Your mum’s right, these chairs are falling to bits. That’s today’s job. What are you up to?’
Fiona sipped her tea then sniffed. ‘I can still smell the smoke in here, Dad.’
‘That’s why I had a smoke now and not later when the Little Prince will descend from the high turret of his stately castle and breath only fresh Dundee air.’
Fiona grinned. ‘I’m off to Edinburgh today, got some folk to see.’
‘Wouldn’t be anything to do with Bruce’s sudden exit, would it?’
‘He used to hate when you called him that.’ She leant over the table, both hands round the mug. ‘Might be.’
‘Can’t you just let him go? A disastrous part of your life but one that’s over now?’
‘Dad, I can’t just shrug off three years, the things we did as a family. Jamie adored him.’
‘Not what he said to me on Sunday when we were out with the kite.’