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Chapters (63)
  1. COVER PAGE
  2. PRAISE
  3. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  4. DEDICATION
  5. CHAPTER 1
  6. CHAPTER 2
  7. CHAPTER 3
  8. CHAPTER 4
  9. CHAPTER 5
  10. CHAPTER 6
  11. CHAPTER 7
  12. CHAPTER 8
  13. CHAPTER 9
  14. CHAPTER 10
  15. CHAPTER 11
  16. CHAPTER 12
  17. CHAPTER 13
  18. CHAPTER 14
  19. CHAPTER 15
  20. CHAPTER 16
  21. CHAPTER 17
  22. CHAPTER 18
  23. CHAPTER 19
  24. CHAPTER 20
  25. CHAPTER 21
  26. CHAPTER 22
  27. CHAPTER 23
  28. CHAPTER 24
  29. CHAPTER 25
  30. CHAPTER 26
  31. CHAPTER 27
  32. CHAPTER 28
  33. CHAPTER 29
  34. CHAPTER 30
  35. CHAPTER 31
  36. CHAPTER 32
  37. CHAPTER 33
  38. CHAPTER 34
  39. CHAPTER 35
  40. CHAPTER 36
  41. CHAPTER 37
  42. CHAPTER 38
  43. CHAPTER 39
  44. CHAPTER 40
  45. CHAPTER 41
  46. CHAPTER 42
  47. CHAPTER 43
  48. CHAPTER 44
  49. CHAPTER 45
  50. CHAPTER 46
  51. CHAPTER 47
  52. CHAPTER 48
  53. CHAPTER 49
  54. CHAPTER 50
  55. CHAPTER 51
  56. CHAPTER 52
  57. CHAPTER 53
  58. CHAPTER 54
  59. CHAPTER 55
  60. CHAPTER 56
  61. CHAPTER 57
  62. CHAPTER 58
  63. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

She felt sweaty, the sheets and her pyjamas were damp. She looked at the clock: six o’clock. Why was it you had such vivid dreams just before you woke up? It was something to do with REM sleep – her mum would know. She’d ask her, though she wouldn’t tell her she’d been dreaming of Pete. Dorothy might think she wasn’t coping well. She wondered if she was coping at all. Sometimes it felt like she kept putting on a brave face for Jamie when all she wanted to do was sob.

Fiona slipped into her flip-flops – thongs, Pete used to call them – and as she headed for the stairs she remembered she had been carrying the same flip-flops in the dream. The house was silent but the early morning light illuminated the wooden stairs as she slapped her way down. Even before she opened the kitchen door, she could smell it. She pushed open the door and shook her head. There at the back door stood her father, in his ancient silk dressing gown, pipe in hand. He was looking out towards the Green and the river beyond.

‘Dad, what are you doing? You promised.’

Struan spun round and grinned. ‘Cup of tea, Fi?’

‘You’re a big cheat, Dad. I’ve given up my cans of the fizzy stuff.’ Fiona muttered, flicking on the kettle.

‘My house, my rules.’ He continued to puff out wisps of smoke. ‘I thought if I did it now, there’s a good two hours till Jamie’s up so he won’t smell it.’

‘Bit extreme, but cunning idea, Dad.’

Struan pulled his matches from his pocket and had just begun to relight his pipe when he turned to look at his daughter.

She was pouring boiling water into two mugs, scowling.

Struan put his pipe on the window ledge outside and strolled into the kitchen. He tousled Fiona’s hair and sat down on the rickety chair. ‘Your mum’s right, these chairs are falling to bits. That’s today’s job. What are you up to?’

Fiona sipped her tea then sniffed. ‘I can still smell the smoke in here, Dad.’

‘That’s why I had a smoke now and not later when the Little Prince will descend from the high turret of his stately castle and breath only fresh Dundee air.’

Fiona grinned. ‘I’m off to Edinburgh today, got some folk to see.’

‘Wouldn’t be anything to do with Bruce’s sudden exit, would it?’

‘He used to hate when you called him that.’ She leant over the table, both hands round the mug. ‘Might be.’

‘Can’t you just let him go? A disastrous part of your life but one that’s over now?’

‘Dad, I can’t just shrug off three years, the things we did as a family. Jamie adored him.’

‘Not what he said to me on Sunday when we were out with the kite.’