—I don’t want to be a hero.

—So? It isn’t everybody who is triumphantly the hero of his own romance, and when we meet one he is likely to be a fascinating monster, like my dear Eisengrim. But just because you are not a roaring egotist, you needn’t fall for the fashionable modern twaddle of the anti-hero and the mini-soul. That is what we might call the Shadow of democracy; it makes it so laudable, so cosy and right and easy to be a spiritual runt and lean on all the other runts for support and applause in a splendid apotheosis of runtdom. Thinking runts, of course—oh, yes, thinking away as hard as a runt can without getting into danger. But there are heroes, still. The modern hero is the man who conquers in the inner struggle. How do you know you aren’t that kind of hero?

—You are as uncomfortable company as an old friend of mine who asked for spiritual heroism in another way. “God is here and Christ is now,” he would say, and ask you to live as if it were true.

—It is true. But it’s equally true to say “Odin is here and Loki is now.” The heroic world is all around us, waiting to be known.

—But we don’t live like that, now.

—Who says so? A few do. Be the hero of your own epic. If others will not, are you to blame? One of the great follies of our time is this belief in some levelling of Destiny, some democracy of Wyrd.

—And you think I should go it alone?

—I don’t think: I feel that you ought at least to consider the possibility, and not cling to Jo like a sailor clinging to a life-belt.

—I wouldn’t know how to start.

—Perhaps if you felt something powerfully enough it would set you on the path.

—But what?

—Awe is a very unfashionable, powerful feeling. When did you last feel awe in the presence of anything?

—God, I can’t remember ever feeling what I suppose you mean by awe.

—Poor Davey! How you have starved! A real little workhouse boy, an Oliver Twist of the spirit! Well, you’re rather old to begin.

—Dr von Haller says not. I can begin the second part of this exploration with her, if I choose. But what is it? Do you know, Liesl?

—Yes, but it isn’t easily explained. It’s a thing one experiences—feels, if you like. It’s learning to know oneself as fully human. A kind of rebirth.

—I was told a lot about that in my boyhood days, when I thought I was a Christian. I never understood it.

—Christians seem to have got it mixed up, somehow. It’s certainly not crawling back into your mother’s womb; it’s more a re-entry and return from the womb of mankind. A fuller comprehension of one’s humanity.

—That doesn’t convey much to me.

—I suppose not. It’s not a thinker’s thing.

—Yet you suggest I go it alone?