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Chapters (60)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. PART ONE
  6. OKSANA
  7. MELISSA
  8. IMANI
  9. TONYA
  10. IMANI
  11. TONYA
  12. RICK
  13. MELISSA
  14. IMANI
  15. TONYA
  16. RICK
  17. IMANI
  18. TONYA
  19. IMANI
  20. TONYA
  21. IMANI
  22. TONYA
  23. RICK
  24. PART TWO
  25. MELISSA
  26. OKSANA
  27. IMANI
  28. TONYA
  29. IMANI
  30. TONYA
  31. IMANI
  32. TONYA
  33. IMANI
  34. TONYA
  35. IMANI
  36. MELISSA
  37. OKSANA
  38. RICK
  39. TONYA
  40. IMANI
  41. TONYA
  42. IMANI
  43. MELISSA
  44. PART THREE
  45. TONYA
  46. IMANI
  47. TONYA
  48. IMANI
  49. TONYA
  50. IMANI
  51. TONYA
  52. IMANI
  53. MELISSA
  54. TONYA
  55. OKSANA
  56. Acknowledgments
  57. Discover More
  58. About the Author
  59. Also by Cate Holahan
  60. Acclaim for Cate Holahan

The thought streamed in the back of Imani’s brain, an unwanted radio signal periodically interrupting her connection to the screen in front of her and the woman at its center. Her patient was a thirty-eight-year-old marketing consultant and mother who, up until the pandemic, had deftly managed a demanding career and caring for two elementary schoolers. She’d done so with the assistance of a nanny, a weekly cleaning service, and in-person school—none of which were currently in her life.

“I can barely think between all the food preparation. I mean, they eat constantly. Constantly. Mommy, can I have a snack? Mommy, it’s our lunch hour. Mom.” The woman wiped her dark bangs off her forehead. Her hair had a stringy quality, like it hadn’t been brushed or washed in a couple days. “And then there are the interruptions with help for school and the laundry and the packages. Every damn day something else needs to be opened and unpacked and recycled. And I’m on deadline for a major project—not that anyone cares in my house.”

The complaints became a background beat to the refrain that Imani couldn’t ignore. Philip had driven Tonya home. Her husband would be spending hours at work with this woman and then ferrying her back to the house where they all lived. The two of them would be alone in the car for thirty minutes at least, sharing their day and dreams, their frustrations and failures. They’d have more quality time together than she had with her own spouse—than she’d had with him for years thanks to the constant demands of his restaurant.

“Do you know what he said to me when I asked him to please come down and fix the internet connection so that the kids could log on?” Her patient continued. “‘Derivative traders don’t multitask.’ He suggested that simply asking him was putting millions of investor money at risk.”

“You both are under a ton of pressure. Are there any things you can scrape off your plate?” Imani asked, aware that her thoughts of Philip and his work were bleeding into her language. “The house, for example, doesn’t need to be as neat as it once was.”

“I can barely walk in it as it is,” the woman said. “Seriously, I look like a hoarder. You can’t see it because I’m having this conversation with you from my bed and only showing you the headboard. If I rotated the camera, you’d think I needed medication.”

“Being stressed is understandable,” Imani said, offering a platitude because she was plainly distracted. “You’re doing more than any one person should have to do.”

“I’m going to have to leave my job.” Her patient looked away from the camera, possibly at the unseen mess. “It’s impossible otherwise.”