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Which was untrue, in a sense, because the girl was flat, still, and colourless, whereas his mother was rotund, voluble, and at least several tones of grey. But Clay had been compelled to say it.
The girl did not reply. She looked down at first, as though he had overstepped the mark. Then she took the costume, and examined the spots of tomato sauce.
‘Ready tomorrow,’ she said.
‘Go on!’
‘Why not?’ the girl replied. ‘We are a One-day.’
But flat and absent she sounded.
Then Clay did not know why, but asked: ‘You’ve got something on your mind.’
She said: ‘It’s only that the sink got blocked yesterday evening.’
It sounded so terribly grey, and she looking out with that expression of permanence. Then at once he knew he had been right, and that the girl at the dry cleaner’s had something of his mother: it was the core of permanence. Then Clay grew excited. For he did not believe in impermanence, not even when his mother attempted to persuade, not even when he watched the clods of earth tumble down on the coffin lid. Not while he was he.
So he said: ‘Tomorrow.’
It sounded so firm, it was almost today.
Clay got used to Marj just as he had got used to his mum, only differently. They swung hands together, walking over the dead grass of several parks, or staring at animals in cages. They were already living together, that is, their silences intermingled. Each had a somewhat clammy palm. And if Marj spoke there was no necessity to answer, it was so flat, her remarks had the colour of masonite.
Marj said: ‘When I have a home of my own, I will turn out the lounge Fridays. I mean, there is a time and place for everything. There are the bedrooms too.’
She said: ‘I do like things to be nice.’
And: ‘Marriage should be serious.’
How serious, Clay began to see, who had not told his mum.
When at last he did she was drying the apostle spoons, one of which she dropped, and he let her pick it up, on seeing that it was necessary for her to perform some therapeutic act.
‘I am so glad Clay,’ she said, rather purple, after a pause, ‘I cannot wait to see this nice girl we must arrange some we must come to an agree there is no reason why a young couple should not hit it off with the mother-in-law if the home is large it is not so much temperament as the size of the home that causes friction.’
Mrs Skerritt had always known herself to be reasonable.
‘And Marj is so like you, Mum.’
‘Eh?’ Mrs Skerritt said.
He could not explain that what was necessary for him, for what he had to do, was a continuum. He could not have explained what he had to do, because he did not know, as yet.
All Mrs Skerritt could say was: ‘The sooner we see the better we shall know.’