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Chapters (44)
  1. Introduction by Alma Guillermoprieto
  2. The Book of Lamentations
  3. I
  4. II
  5. III
  6. IV
  7. V
  8. VI
  9. VII
  10. VIII
  11. IX
  12. X
  13. XI
  14. XII
  15. XIII
  16. XIV
  17. XV
  18. XVI
  19. XVII
  20. XVIII
  21. XIX
  22. XX
  23. XXI
  24. XXII
  25. XXIII
  26. XXIV
  27. XXV
  28. XXVI
  29. XXVII
  30. XXVIII
  31. XXIX
  32. XXX
  33. XXXI
  34. XXXII
  35. XXXIII
  36. XXXIV
  37. XXXV
  38. XXXVI
  39. XXXVII
  40. XXXVIII
  41. XXXIX
  42. XL
  43. Afterword by Esther Allen
  44. A Brief Glossary of Tzotzil and Spanish Terms

For Domingo she had, at times, a trace of a smile, a blink of understanding. The ilol turned an anxious, expectant face toward the boy. Undoubtedly she wanted to speak, but her throat would not allow anything but incoherent sounds, aborted sobs, to pass through it. Domingo buried himself in her lap, blocking his ears so as not to hear the inhuman efforts Catalina was making to break her silence.

Strength returned little by little to the ilol’s worn-out body and with it suffering. She could find no comfortable position and her desires were never understood. Catalina was suffocating in that hut thick with smoke; she wanted to go out to the field, yes, to the light. She no longer felt guilty, she felt betrayed. She needed to defy those who followed and then abandoned her. She was not afraid of being questioned; she was boiling inside with impassioned replies, harsh arguments. But she wore herself out in imaginary combats and the slightest real effort exhausted her. She lay in a corner of the hut, watching the others come and go, envying their freedom and their health.

One day Catalina perceived a palpitation, a sense of something imminent in the empty air around her. With panicky speed she stood up; she was going to ask for help but there was no one there. She was alone. With her eyes closed and a trickle of anguish on her forehead she dropped back onto the straw mattress.

Over the hill, horsemen were riding toward Tzajal-hemel. Without grace, without gallantry, stirred by sordid cruelty and invested with destructive power, the police had been sent by the authorities of Ciudad Real to seize all those responsible for the idolatrous cult, for secret associations and attempts at insurrection.

Xaw Ramírez Paciencia’s reports gave the police precise names and exact locations. But who, advancing with the momentum of punishment, stops to verify such things? Who can tell the difference between a guilty Indian and an innocent Indian? Who listens to allegations made in a confused, rapid language that nobody has ever thought it worthwhile to understand?

The police fell on the village, avid as birds of prey. The men were absent, in the cornfields, on the mountain, and the women ran in disorderly flight, carrying small children in their arms, trying to save a suckling lamb, a newly fired clay utensil, a half-woven woolen cloth.

In her helplessness, Catalina heard the scurrying and shouting, the clatter of the horses’ hooves, the shrill cackling, the agonized squealing of the pigs. Brutal guffaws mingled with the weak rasping breaths of the dying, and the weeping of children followed the clamor of smashed furniture, broken pots, ripped fabric.