Back The Book of Dreams
Chapters (79)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. DAY ONE
  4. Henri
  5. DAY FIFTEEN
  6. Sam
  7. Eddie
  8. Sam
  9. Eddie
  10. Sam
  11. Henri
  12. Eddie
  13. Eddie
  14. Henri
  15. Sam
  16. DAY SEVENTEEN
  17. Eddie
  18. Sam
  19. Eddie
  20. Sam
  21. DAY TWENTY
  22. Henri
  23. DAY TWENTY-FIVE
  24. Henri
  25. DAY TWENTY-SEVEN
  26. Sam
  27. DAY THIRTY
  28. Henri
  29. DAY THIRTY-ONE
  30. Eddie
  31. DAY THIRTY-THREE
  32. Henri
  33. DAY THIRTY-FOUR
  34. Henri
  35. Sam
  36. DAY THIRTY-FIVE
  37. Henri
  38. DAY THIRTY-SIX
  39. Henri
  40. DAY THIRTY-SEVEN
  41. Sam
  42. DAY THIRTY-EIGHT
  43. Henri
  44. DAY THIRTY-NINE
  45. Eddie
  46. DAY FORTY
  47. Sam
  48. Henri
  49. Eddie
  50. Sam
  51. DAY FORTY-ONE
  52. Sam
  53. Henri
  54. Eddie
  55. DAY FORTY-THREE
  56. Henri
  57. DAY FORTY-THREE
  58. Henri
  59. DAY FORTY-FOUR
  60. Henri
  61. Sam
  62. Eddie
  63. DAY FORTY-FIVE
  64. Eddie
  65. Henri
  66. DAY FORTY-SIX
  67. Sam
  68. Henri
  69. Eddie
  70. Henri
  71. DAY FORTY-SIX
  72. Sam
  73. Eddie
  74. EPILOGUE
  75. Henri
  76. POSTSCRIPT
  77. Afterword and Thanks
  78. About Nina George
  79. Copyright

Dr. Saul once explained to me that he’s one of only four neurosurgeons capable of carrying out reliable tests with it. “The monster peers into the brain for us. We can ask questions such as ‘Did you eat a clown for breakfast?’ and see if there’s a response in the middle prefrontal cortex. We can inject a fluorescent substance into the patient and measure his or her glucose consumption. If the brain continues to consume nutrients, then there’s a high probability that the patient is using them. We can even stimulate his or her motor imagination. ‘Play tennis! Hop on one leg! Imagine that you’re clenching your fist!’ We can do any of those things and the lights would start to blink, but unfortunately hardly anyone can interpret the signals. Nobody knows if it’s a reaction or simply a loose contact. The machine is smart, and we are stupid.”

Nevertheless, God says to Dmitry, “Please prepare Mr. Skinner,” then motions to Eddie and me to follow him into his office. I take my time getting to my feet. Eddie brushes the remaining strands of hair next to the scar from my father’s operation out of his face. Her gesture is full of love, fear, and infinite sadness. Then she looks at me and says, “Come to us,” reaching across my father’s chest. I remove my disposable glove, take her hand, and then clasp his right fingers. She grasps his left hand and we stand there, united.

Eddie checks that we’re alone and asks, “Tell me how you do it, Sam. Will this work?”

I immediately understand what she means, but I don’t know how to explain it to her.

I hear Scott’s grave future-psychologist voice echoing in my mind. “Mon ami, your only hope is occasionally to make contact with the outside world. Use pictures to explain. People like pictures.”

So I try to put it into pictures. I can intensify my perception of everything I see by combining the senses, as if I were dialing up the volume or pushing a button up to maximum. Bright numbers, scented music, fragrances that paint pictures, colored pain, lies, anger, emotions, echoes from buildings.

“Is he here now?” she asks.

I stare into my father’s open, unresponsive eyes. I can feel he’s there below the surface, just as you can perceive someone’s presence behind a door. The atmosphere is different—denser, warmer.

“Yes,” I reply.

She gasps, her expression a mixture of disbelief and devotion. “Can he hear me?” she asks with longing and doubt in her voice.

“What do you think?” I say. Maybe she too has an amplifier inside her. Maybe everyone does but simply doesn’t know it.

Eddie gazes at my father, and the words wrench themselves from her lips. “Oh—H-Henri,” she stammers. “Oh, Henri, I love you.”