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Chapters (56)
  1. Cover
  2. THE BLACK EARTH
  3. Dedication
  4. Contents
  5. BOOK I
  6. CHAPTER ONE
  7. CHAPTER TWO
  8. CHAPTER THREE
  9. CHAPTER FOUR
  10. CHAPTER FIVE
  11. CHAPTER SIX
  12. CHAPTER SEVEN
  13. BOOK II
  14. CHAPTER EIGHT
  15. CHAPTER NINE
  16. CHAPTER TEN
  17. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  18. CHAPTER TWELVE
  19. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  20. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  21. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  22. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  23. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  24. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  25. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY
  27. BOOK III
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  34. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  36. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  42. BOOK IV
  43. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  44. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  45. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  46. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  47. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  48. CHAPTER FORTY
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  53. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  54. About the Author
  55. By Philip Kazan
  56. Copyright

‘I promise. He’s my brother, isn’t he?’

‘You have always been my gift, Zoë. My gift from the sea.’ Mama takes a painful breath. ‘Do you forgive me?’

‘Forgive you, Mama? What for?’ Zoë stares at her in surprise.

‘For pretending to be your mother, all those years ago.’

‘My …’ Zoë’s heart seems to stop for a moment. She takes Mama’s hand and presses it against her face. ‘You are my mother. You’ve never pretended.’ She gulps, fighting tears. ‘I’ve been very, very lucky. I’ve had two mothers. And both of them loved me … loved me just …’

‘That makes me so happy. Shush, darling girl. I’m sorry I upset you.’

‘Upset me, Mama? I love you!’

Mama struggles upright and takes Zoë in her arms. She is nothing but bone beneath her nightshirt and her skin smells powdery and sour, but Zoë doesn’t notice. She buries her face in Mama’s hair and sobs.

‘Shush, shush, my little bird! Shush.’ Mama strokes Zoë’s back. She begins to whisper something into Zoë’s ear. Through her crying, Zoë begins to make out a tune and then the words, low and achingly familiar.

Nani nani, my darling daughter

Sleep sweetly, Mama’s here

She’s going to bring you five white eggs

Five full baskets

To lay around your bed.

The old lullaby, the sweet nonsense of the words that Mama had sung her, countless times, in tents, in abandoned buildings, in seething crowds, calms Zoë now as it had always calmed her then.

‘One more thing,’ Mama is saying. ‘When I go, let me go alone. Do you understand? Everyone here is a widow or a widower, and so many are only half in this world. The other half is below, with the ones they’ve lost. With Charon. I want all of you to stay here. I’m not afraid of the boatman. I’m afraid of turning around on his boat, and finding you behind me. Don’t cry for me. Don’t yell and scream and all that nonsense. Let the old ravens do that. Let me go, Zoë.’

‘I don’t want to!’

‘And I don’t want you to. But you must. Do you promise?’

Zoë swallows and winds her fingers through Mama’s hair. ‘If I can’t cry, what can I do?’

‘You can sing for me, like the country women do. But later, later. Whenever you sing, sing for me. Can you promise that, my daughter?’

‘Yes, Mama.’ Zoë closes her eyes and thinks of all the songs that will be sung, all the songs already germinating in her heart. ‘I do. I promise.’