Back The Ash Family
Chapters (43)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. fall
  4. CHAPTER 1
  5. CHAPTER 2
  6. CHAPTER 3
  7. CHAPTER 4
  8. CHAPTER 5
  9. CHAPTER 6
  10. winter
  11. CHAPTER 7
  12. CHAPTER 8
  13. spring
  14. CHAPTER 9
  15. CHAPTER 10
  16. CHAPTER 11
  17. CHAPTER 12
  18. summer
  19. CHAPTER 13
  20. CHAPTER 14
  21. CHAPTER 15
  22. CHAPTER 16
  23. CHAPTER 17
  24. CHAPTER 18
  25. fall
  26. CHAPTER 19
  27. CHAPTER 20
  28. CHAPTER 21
  29. CHAPTER 22
  30. CHAPTER 23
  31. CHAPTER 24
  32. winter
  33. CHAPTER 25
  34. CHAPTER 26
  35. CHAPTER 27
  36. spring and summer
  37. CHAPTER 28
  38. fall
  39. CHAPTER 29
  40. CHAPTER 30
  41. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  42. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  43. Copyright

“Let me come,” Rainer said. I was sure she’d say no. He was newer than I was.

“It will be smaller than the last one,” she said. She smiled and touched his ear. “We’ll ask Dice.” They saw me staring and turned away.

Bay was due back soon. I had hoped that by now—a year in—I’d be trusted with showing a newcomer around, but I knew that after the rebirth I had to start from zero again. This time, Osha was in charge. She had a broad, ruddy Scandinavian face, flyaway hair, and energy for even the most onerous tasks. She was like Sara, invulnerable.

Bay’s car returned in late morning. I was on the porch, fixing a hole in the knee of my canvas pants, sewing with the same viney thread that Sara and I had used to string up the beans a month ago. Osha rushed out to greet the newcomer. I heard her say, “Right on time.” I kept my eyes on my sewing at first, because I wanted to seem busy.

“Here’s Harmony,” Osha said, “my wonderful sister.”

When I looked up, my stomach dropped. It was Isaac, my ex-boyfriend. Isaac, with his hammerhead eyes. I could scarcely believe it until I saw the claw tattoo on his temple.

Lindsay, I thought. Lindsay told. Then: He’s come to take me away. I wondered if he’d spoken with my mother—if she’d be coming too. I wondered what he’d do if I refused. If he’d try to get the police involved, calling it a kidnapping. Or if he’d try to number us—report us, get us for tax evasion, destroy the whole community. If investigators came they might look for Pear and link her death to me. I was a terrible liar—if they put me under oath, I did not know what I would say.

“Nice to meet you,” he said. What a good idea—we’d pretend we were strangers. He stuck out his hand, and I grasped it. I knew he was feeling my calluses as I felt his silky cold palm.

I said, “Welcome.” I avoided looking at his face. I looked down at his Velcro-closure tennis shoes. I looked up as Bay unfolded himself from the car and walked toward us. Bay was so rough looking, I’d forgotten; his skin was dented like a rained-on pond. I waved. He did not wave back. I could not look at Isaac.

“Nice to have you back, Bay!” I said. He raised his eyebrows and I felt silly. “Well, Osha,” Bay said, ignoring me, “why don’t you give our guest a tour?”

“I’ll come along,” I said.

“You’ll stay here with your sewing,” Osha said. I still could not look at Isaac. “You can show him the barn later, how about that?”