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Chapters (64)
  1. FRONT COVER
  2. TITLE PAGE
  3. DEDICATION
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. CHAPTER FOUR
  8. CHAPTER FIVE
  9. CHAPTER SIX
  10. CHAPTER SEVEN
  11. CHAPTER EIGHT
  12. CHAPTER NINE
  13. CHAPTER TEN
  14. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  15. CHAPTER TWELVE
  16. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  17. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  19. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  21. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  22. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  23. CHAPTER TWENTY
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  33. CHAPTER THIRTY
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  43. CHAPTER FORTY
  44. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  45. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  46. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  53. CHAPTER FIFTY
  54. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  55. CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
  56. CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
  57. CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
  58. CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
  59. CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
  60. CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
  61. CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
  62. CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
  63. CHAPTER SIXTY
  64. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

Every shape had depth in this third dimension. This had to be where the data was stored. I reached up with my eyes and pulled the pieces toward me, allowing the lid to transect their cross sections – another revelation: I could push them away or pull them close. Each one was a unique building block, made up of thousands of layers. Every reflection was, in reality, a stack of wafer-thin units – like glimmers of the larger thought.

Eyes is gonna be so proud. I can just taste the nectar.

An asymmetrical gear-shaped reflection came next, and I quickly flipped it to the side in order to understand how many layers it had. Thousands probably, though it didn’t hold as many wafers as the crescent. I pulled the shape toward me, exposing a cross-section maybe halfway through it on the lid of the dredge. The layer itself was engraved, or etched, and still frustratingly unintelligible. The piece disappeared.

The edges of my brain were getting fuzzy.

Ignoring that, I took hold of a new piece – an easy semi-circle that looked like Ms Pacman, and selected a layer to examine. I counted three deep and set it across the lid, staring at its neon glow until it disappeared. Then, with the afterimage still fresh, I dismissed a handful of new shapes until I found the one that paired with the Pacman shape and scrolled to the third layer, then blinked the afterimage over it. A notion, a memory, a glimmer – suddenly unlocked.

A scene unfolded of a childhood. A mother as seen through the eyes of her son, sitting on the bank of a creek. The mother is holding something and speaking to the boy – to me, unsettlingly, as the child. It is as if I’m eavesdropping, but there is no sound beyond murmurs. This mother’s face is crystalline. Every muscle an expression of unconditional love. I swallowed hard, having to remind myself that she is gazing upon her son, not me. They peer together through a magnifying glass at something in the dirt – a group of pill bugs – and the moment passes for the two of them. The mother is not my mother. The child is not me.

The image fractures and dissolves like a frame of melting celluloid. Gasping, I scattered the incoming reflections to the side, breaking my trance, and called to be let out, wiping my tear-streaked face.

The lid opened. Eyes pulled me up and out, considered me. Gone is the Bloom of God.

My hands shook and my teeth chattered all the way back to the enclosure. Seeing the memory of another human being played before me like a home movie was terrifying. I was a trespasser to someone’s most sacred moments. An interloper of nostalgia.