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Chapters (59)
  1. Praise
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright Page
  4. Dedication
  5. Acknowledgements
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. Chapter 8
  14. Chapter 9
  15. Chapter 10
  16. Chapter 11
  17. Chapter 12
  18. Chapter 13
  19. Chapter 14
  20. Chapter 15
  21. Chapter 16
  22. Chapter 17
  23. Chapter 18
  24. Chapter 19
  25. Chapter 20
  26. Chapter 21
  27. Chapter 22
  28. Chapter 23
  29. Chapter 24
  30. Chapter 25
  31. Chapter 26
  32. Chapter 27
  33. Chapter 28
  34. Chapter 29
  35. Chapter 30
  36. Chapter 31
  37. Chapter 32
  38. Chapter 33
  39. Chapter 34
  40. Chapter 35
  41. Chapter 36
  42. Chapter 37
  43. Chapter 38
  44. Chapter 39
  45. Chapter 40
  46. Chapter 41
  47. Chapter 42
  48. Chapter 43
  49. Chapter 44
  50. Chapter 45
  51. Chapter 46
  52. Chapter 47
  53. Chapter 48
  54. Chapter 49
  55. Chapter 50
  56. Chapter 51
  57. Chapter 52
  58. Chapter 53
  59. Chapter 54

They smiled at each other, like children sharing a secret, and Sophie started to feel very strange, almost spellbound; something was gradually stealing up on her; she thought that maybe it was hope.

They probed each other over the food; Sophie ordered moules marinière, a speciality of the house; they were delicious, faintly scented with garlic and parsley, in a white-wine broth she mopped up with crusty bread; Hugh, who didn’t care what he ate, chose a plain Dover sole with lemon and butter; it was excellent, and his salad was crisp and full of summer herbs.

It was easy to talk. Sophie felt as though she’d known Montfort forever. He instictively understood her; he didn’t belittle her, or say flowery things; he listened gravely and made her feel that what she had to say mattered.

He seemed interested in Tom, and when her love overwhelmed her, and she started to cry, there was no awkwardness; he merely said, “I’m sorry,” and waited for her to calm herself.

“It’s because he loves his father.” Sophie dabbed the tears away. “I know that. Whatever Pierre was, he was Tom’s father. But I’m the one who’s always been there. Even when Pierre was alive, he was out—always out.” She thought briefly of Judy. “I never wondered why, and maybe that was wrong. I was at home playing with our baby.” Her shoulders hooped again. “And yet it seems that he prefers his father to me . . . it’s almost as if I didn’t count.”

“I doubt that.” Hugh took a slow sip of his wine. “Tom doesn’t love his father; he hardly knew his father. Rather, he loves the idea of his father, which without the man there to contradict it, is a stupidly rosy picture.”

He put his large hand over her small one, and Sophie didn’t pull away.

“It’s not a unique situation. Divorced women all over the world go through it. The children, when they grow up, realize the falsehood of the image. Tom has nothing more sinister than a longing for two parents.”

“But what he said about me . . .”

“He’s still young enough to feel repulsion at the idea of his mother as a sexual creature. He’ll grow out of that, too.”

Sophie flushed. “My gown wasn’t sexual . . .”

“Indeed it was.” Montfort winked at her. “Although perfectly modest. But Tom is not quite done with his adolescence. He’s still at the stage where he would prefer you in a burka.”

Sophie laughed weakly. “I suppose so. You’re very good at making me feel better, Hugh.”

“I hope I am,” he responded seriously.

“And you.” She turned those shining brown eyes to him. “Why haven’t you remarried? Are you . . .”

Sophie’s voice trailed off.

“Am I what?”

“I’m sorry.” She twirled the stem of her wineglass. “I was about to say something impertinent.”