Chapters (8)
Victor Boyfriends, yes. Many boyfriends. They go crazy for my body. But also my father, yes? My father and my brother go crazy for my body.
Nadia So … you’re close as a family?
Victor Please?
Nadia A very loving family.
Victor Yes I think so. Yes. My brother he likes to photograph me, you know? Polaroid? Since I was fourteen. Polaroid of my body. See? (Offers Nadia the Polaroids.) See? Fucking fantastic body.
Nadia And that’s your … ? Right. Right.
Victor And I say to my brother when I am fourteen: I could be in porno.
Nadia Well that’s great.
Victor Yes?
Nadia Yes, I think it’s great to have an ambition. Something you want and really go for it.
Victor One day I was so fucking crazy I took Polaroids and I … please word is … I … scan Polaroids on home page and I say: ’Look at this great body. Great body, crazy guy. Any other crazy guys out there want to do stuff with this fucking crazy body?’
Nadia Well I think that’s fantastic. No I do. To be open.
Victor Yes. Open. Hungry hole.
Nadia To possibilities.
Victor And what do you want?
Nadia Well…
Victor What are you going for?
Nadia I don’t know yet. I’m still trying to find out, you know? Where I really belong in the universe. Nothing’s fixed for me, which is cool in a way. Sometimes you just have to let yourself be open to possibilities before you can really choose, you know?
Victor When will Tim be back? I really like the idea of Japanese guy. For one hundred days every year he will keep me in cave.
Nadia But you chose Tim,
Victor I just want to be in London.
Nadia But Tim brought you here. Tim paid for you to be here.
Victor Everyone in London gave up on that meaning bullshit years ago, you know? And now they enjoy theirself. I love trash, okay? I like it when everything is trash. Trash music, trash food, trash people. I love these things.
Nadia I don’t think Tim is trash.
Victor Oh yes, he told me. His home page: ‘I’m one hundred per cent pure trash.’
Nadia He may have said that …
Victor And I say: ‘Yes. This is the guy I want to meet. This trash guy.’
Nadia I think Tim’s self-esteem –
Victor Please?
Nadia I don’t think Tim always values himself. But actually, Tim is a very beautiful person. A very loving person.
Victor Oh no. This is not possible.
Nadia Yes. A person with a lot of love to give.
Victor Why didn’t he tell me?
Nadia Yes, And actually a very spiritual person.
Victor He has lied to me. Fuck this. Why didn’t he say?
Nadia I don’t know. Maybe he was ill and in a vulnerable position.
Victor Ill?
Nadia Maybe.
Victor He is ill?
Nadia No I don’t …