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Chapters (39)
  1. Cover
  2. Prologue
  3. Part One
  4. Chapter 1
  5. Chapter 2
  6. Chapter 3
  7. Chapter 4
  8. Chapter 5
  9. Chapter 6
  10. Chapter 7
  11. Part Two
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Part Three
  27. Chapter 22
  28. Chapter 23
  29. Chapter 24
  30. Chapter 25
  31. Chapter 26
  32. Chapter 27
  33. Chapter 28
  34. Chapter 29
  35. Chapter 30
  36. Acknowledgments
  37. A Note on the Author
  38. A Note on the Type
  39. Also by Tishani Doshi

Misrak’s boss Patty arrives with her husband. They’re carrying a fluffy white-fabric photo album and a bouquet of white roses.

‘Please, no slips, okay?’ Misrak says, when she sees them walking towards us. ‘I told them it wasn’t necessary, but Patty was hung up. She said if my family couldn’t come, the least she could do is be here, can you believe?’

It is over in minutes. We sign our names as witnesses. We take photographs in the sun. It’s an afternoon of giddy delight, as if we were standing on a high mountain, the oxygen in our lungs clipped and clean.

Later, at Applebee’s, Abebe unbuttons the top of his kameez. ‘Coronas for everyone,’ he says, and the way he gesticulates, the great girth of him, makes me think that one day he’ll make a woman burst with joy. Not Misrak, of course, but someone else.

‘I feel bad,’ Misrak says, looking at the card that Patty and her husband had placed in the album. ‘They were so earnest. So full of good wishes, but it’s also funny, isn’t it?’ We laugh so much the stitches in our sides seem to come undone. To an outsider we might have appeared like the subjects of a Bruce Weber photograph gone downscale – no Hamptons here, but look at this dewy skin, look at this golden light.

That night, as Misrak and I lie across from each other on our mattresses, the dirty grey shag beneath us, she says, ‘They always tell us we need a man. All the old crones at home, they go on and on about how much we need a man. Even my lovely liberal father says it. He says it will make life acceptable. But what I need is America. And if a fake husband will get me a Green Card so I can stay, then fuck it, I’ll take him.’

Five years later Misrak met Jake at a library meeting, a man of such checked-shirt regularity, it seemed unthinkable that they could love each other. But within weeks they fitted parts of themselves into each other’s voids, voids they didn’t know they had. There was a speedy divorce from Abebe, who laughed loudly when he heard the news. ‘My wife is in love with an American man!’ he chortled. ‘And I am so happy.’ There was another trip to the courthouse – subdued, nervy. I yawned through the whole thing. ‘Don’t worry about me,’ Misrak said, crushing me against her. ‘I’m not going to change a bit.’